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I dont understand why its so wrong for me to be happy. I spend all of the time doing for others, giving so much of myself, making sure the ones around me are okay before I even think about me, and what happens? I get blasted for the one thing that makes me truly happy.



Im so tired of being held down, being told that everything I do is wrong. Im tired of living my life as dictated by others.

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Kitsuna
05:25 Nov 30 2008

May I add to that?



I don't understand why it's right for some people to put the blame on me. While my intentions are good, and helpful.



*sigh*



You know what sis? Seriously tell them to shove it if you can. If for somne reason the universe deams it wrong for you to be happy, tell it to shove it and make yourself happy. You've done a lot for other people, the Karma will comeback.

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No matter what, We have always had this.



Goodbye to Bill, to 207, to the Training Truck and the A-Team, Captians bars and Leutenant bars that break and those stupid pins with the blue stones. Goodbye to rig check and those who dont do them, to the jackass olympics, to the stairluge, the winger, bottle bombs, water pistols on a hot summer day. Goodbye to writing on the board, staff meetings, putting graffiti on Aarons door, making fun of Frank, the sperm couch, pulgging in trucks, cold winter mornings when the trucks dont start and hot summer afternoons when the air conditioning stops working. Goodbye to diesel fumes, crappy stretchers, retardafolded sheets, airport special jump bags. Goodbye to XM, Opie and Anthony, angry music, shawties on the Walk and Boobies on the Parkway, cuties in cars and CHUDS at the intersection on Jimmie Leeds. Goodbye to egg-a-moobies, Vics, Five Guys, Chesters (Hello!), Mary's cookies at christmas. Goodbye to Fresnius EHT and AC, City, Mainland, Shore, Eastern Pines, Our Ladys, Meadowview, Mainland Manor, Bacharach, Health Center, Royal Suites. Goodbye to Aaron, Ray, Chris, the Jeremys, Frank the Hacker, Melissa, Krystal and Matt, Austin, Brad and his Bald Head, Gena, David, Leslie, Megan, Darchelle, Ruthie, Darrly, Jen Camp, Frank the Dispatcher, On-Calls, 5am starts, and Naps. Goodbye to Fun, SuperTroopers, Clerks 2, Austin Powers, Danzig's Mother, RHCP's Snow, Inside Jokes, and the Death of Fun.



Goodbye to my Family at Senior. May we always remember this time.

The Original, The Best, The ONLY, 81-10

How do you find the right words to say when one of your Best Friends is hurting?



When I was in nursing school, when we covered Death and Dying, we talked about something called "offering self." Basically what it means is that you listen, not really saying anything or offering advice, but just listening. I've been doing that, but I never feel like its enough.



(You know who you are. And I hurt with you. I wish there was something I could say to take it all back, to make it all right.)

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LadyChordewa
21:31 Nov 16 2008

Thank you dearest.

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Angelus
13:12 Nov 21 2008

..one of the hardest skills to learn, if it doesn't come naturally.. the ability to listen.

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Date of Birth: September 2 September 29

Animal: Swan

Gaelic Name: Eala (Approximate pronunciation: ellah.)

Ruling Planet: Venus

Key Words: Beauty, Love and Soul.

Gift Quality or Ability: Swan people are kind and gentle, adept in love and the social arts. Calm and serene with a strong domestic sense. Connection with faerie, shape shifting, and creativity.

Birth Stone: Emerald

Compatibility: Harmonious relations with the signs of crane and bee. Will also relate well to the owl, cat and bear. Difficulties may be expected in relation to all other signs

Sept 8 22 - Mut



Mut is one of the most ancient divinities of the Egyptian pantheon. In the presence of this fearsome goddess, man is born with the feeling that his life must be paid for by guilt in terms of the mystical parallel between the life of the human and the death of the divine. Thus, those born under the sign of Mut are secretive beings inclined to melancholy. Full of irony, frustrated in seduction because of their shyness, they nevertheless have formidable inner riches because they know how to go directly to the point in all their human relationships. Their wisdom is obvious, their hopes inspiring. What they search for most is the goodwill and protection of an authoritative father figure.