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07:10 Dec 19 2007
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*Note: Before reading this entry please read the one in my Just Me section first.



Fate, destiny, blah blah what hogwash. There is no predestined life planned out for me, I am my own God, I control my life not some diety or seer. So I downcasted the prophesy laid out for me. I went so far as to merely avoid wolves altogether. There was no way in hell I was going to even give it the chance to prove itself right & correct.

Around my 17th birthday I had made up my mind to just let things happen and not fret over anything that came in my way. Then a few years later I found the dark being in the land where my heart truly lies at. At first I was just mildly interested in him & I found enjoyment in his endeavors. The ideals he came up with & the tricks he played seemed mean & ruthless to majority but to me I enjoyed every minute of it, even when I was in the line of fire. If money permitted it I would have been left but no such luck.

Finally I forget that my betroved was suppose to be wolf & I began making friends amongst them and I met one who had made my heart feel warmth again. He wasn;t the one I was chosen for so over time we lost contact. Miss him I do, think of him every night,

As a couple more years past I found another whom taken my breathe away. He was extrodinary but he had flaws no man should ever have, over-pride. But still he made my heart flutter in an odd sort of way. Over a few months he broke my heart deeply, more deeply than any other has. In time he built me back up but he couldn't free me. He believed my entrapment within the barrier was my doing but honestly it had always been there for as long as I can remember. I now know that he may not be the one that frees me, I'm like a genie trapped within a bottle. My dark one suddenly appears again when I come to the assumption that perhaps this wolf could not free me. I know my nights & days of slumber torn, fearing that I may have to leave to where my heart calls home & it shall not be my wolf but rather my darkness.