The Condition by Sin (thoughts and facts)08:04 Dec 24 2005
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20051222 - Personal Thought on the Condition
09:31:20 - Dec 22 2005
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After some time of going through the condition and all the myths in the world in
regards to that of vampiric nature. I have came to the firm understanding that trying to
distinguish what was, at one point, true for us as a people to what is fake, as a group. As much as dissecting the nature of the condition, breaking it down through science and then trying to discern it with the magical process, I have come to only one ideal. What if God has put this condition upon this world for some sort of balance? It's hard to try and bring in God when referring to the condition, specially since we are seen,
through out history, as blood thirsty demons of Samuel. Yet, my question is, what if God has created this condition for a reason to help recycle the flow of ambient loose energy through out the world? I believe people do not give enough credit to God for some of the things that do occur here in the world.
Frankly I believe God has some how deceived many into believing that some of the most heinous acts within the world were done to help preserve people of this world. So with that, why can God not kill off five thousand people? What if that is a slow means to saving the world and all of its inhabitants? I know I’m going far from what I was originally trying to explain, yet no matter what it will lead directly back to what I was trying to refer to. I know many young people these days see God as nothing but a menace, yet without God nothing would have been possible, specially the beliefs of many different aspects of God and the means in which we are to worship the one God.
Either way I believe we were created by God for a purpose, and with that mention, that purpose is revealed to us through messages that go unnoticed through out the world daily. I feel that its only a handful of those of the condition realize what these signs are, and only a smaller percent of these type of people actually listen.
As religious as this sounds, trying to make God the good person, I’m not trying to sell anything in religion, just the fact that, what if we have all been going in the wrong direction when trying to study the condition and trying to break it down, find the creator of it and the purpose of why those of us who have it, are afflicted by it. I believe this won’t come to us for some time, and even then, I believe those times might never come until after we have passed from this world and onto the next.
Not sure how many people will really ponder this ideal, yet it is something to look into and reflect on, specially since it brings another aspect into all of this, and a different sight of mind set to explore. I just hope people keep themselves open minded about it
all and not just jump to the conclusion that I’m some Bible thumper, in fact, if anything I’m not. I’m just a man, a scholar in this world doing what many of the condition and occultists do, try to find some means to the truth, even if that means I have to look into
the abyss and risk my own soul to do it.
- Gabriel Sin
the Path of Sin (My Teachings of the Condition and theroies)
12:36:27 - Aug 25 2005
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Our Beginnings
I cant say where we came from, all I can say is that we are another type of people who still wonder about the beginning. Maybe we came from Adam and Eve, maybe we were apart of the Elorath, or maybe we were apes at one point and time. All I can be for certain though, is that we are here now, as we are, and forever will be, that of the condition.
The Condition
Now this is my theory that I have came up with. Its like every other idea that is brought up, something to look at and chew on as we consider the reason for our energy not regenerating like that of any normal person.
The Breath of God/Divinity
While doing research through a text, I came across something that brought to me some sort of cosmic slap in the face, a realization of something that might hit home about us more then one would think, or at least I believe so.
The Spirits of God has many references to other words which we call this as, Prana, Kundalini, The Holy Spirit, or in Qabalistic terms, Ruach Elohim. Some of those familiar with the concept of martial arts and other associated eastern philosophies know it as Chi or Mana.
With this brought to light, these terms are all used in our lives when drawing life energy into our own bodies to make up for the void we have within us.
Sins of our Fathers
What if this lack of life energy was the lack of Gods presence or spirits within us? Or for those who do not believe in God, but some sort of Divinity, what if it’s the lack of their energy within us? Now, your asking yourself, what would cause us to have this lack of energy? It is said vampire are damned creatures right? Cast out of the light, never to be redeemed, never to fill the warmth of light. What if this light was the Divinities essence, and our damnation was us being born into sin, not like those of normal standards, but, that of worse situations. Maybe we were corrupt from the beginning, always born to take more sin into our lives and in which case, stops the flow of the divinities blessings to us.
Also, speculations, maybe we are the children of someone who has offended the divinities, maybe part of the First murderers lineage, or that of Lilith, as much as these sound so fantastic and probably ideas for those who wish to make themselves something, yet, some times, we aren’t always that of something so monumental, but that of which cannot or was not known by the world.
Now I know there are some out there that are probably saying "I have a strong connection to God/Divinity, so I'm sure if that is true about our sins or not." All I'm doing is bringing another idea to the table about what the condition is.
(More is on its way, give me time and it will be there)
- Sin
Black Swan/White Swan
14:23:24 - Aug 09 2005
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I was looking through my books about the two different type of Swans, yet only found a small passage about the Black Swan.
Swan: Those who are not of the Condition, who either know of it, accept it, live with it as a friend or those who are ignorant of it, or know of it, yet do not accept it and dislike us for what we are. This is to reprecent the beauty found in both ignorance and wisdom, like the apple that Eve bit from, this shows the two worlds.
Black Swans: Those who know of the Condition and are there to help to, be friends, donors, guides, ect. Then there are those who are of the condition and favored as friends of the houses, without being actually apart of the house its self. Black is to represent the dirty of the soul being covered in sin to know of us and to accept us as we are. The black is to also represent the beauty of night, which reflects our nature, as we are out casted from society for being and knowing what we truly are.
White Swans: Those who are absent of sin, these people are of two types, ignorant of what we are, and that we exist, which, we see the beauty in that fact. They will not have to know that the world truly does have things science cannot fully explain, and then there are the types that know what we are and dislike us for it. At times this dislike becomes hate, anger and the like. Why they dislike us? Not sure, can be anything, from us being "parasites" to their minds not handling the truth and snapping. At times these people become phsycial about it, some times to the point were they will kill us, that is when they become hunters. As much as we do not want to see the beauty in that type of swan, I can only say that beauty is seen in weird ways. It shows to us, not everyone is able to handle truth, and with that, they will go to what ends it takes to make sure the truth stays hidden.
The Three Roads of the Condition (True Vampyrism)
15:57:32 - Jul 26 2005
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These Roads are taken straight from the Strigoi Vii Teachings, I will add stuff later on things from the Liber Cain, a different set of ideas on the Condition.
Mradu (Pages 127 - 128 of Liber Jahira)
The Warrior in the old tongue are known as the Mradu. These are the protectors, guardians and warriors of the Condition. They are individuals gifted with physical prowess and the knowledge of protective, grounding energy and military arts. It is the Mradu's Purpose to safeguard the Ramkht and Kitra, seeing that none come to any harm whether from threats within the community or outside. It is common for a Ramkht to have at least one Mradu who is especially trusted and is a companion and guard. The Mradu help enforce the rules within the community and see to it that the authority of the Magisters is respected. They are the physical, aggresive male energy within a group, virile and powerful, and at the same time stable and trustworthy as their element, the Earth. Mradu are most often Male, but it is common to find females in the Mradu Road.
Mradu talents include: grounding energy, Martial Arts, diplomacy (within and outside the community), cleansing, banishing, military tactics, perspective in politics, security, practical matters, building and contrsution and mechanics. In ritual it is their Job to generate the energy and maintain the protective circle.
Kitra (See Pages 126 - 127 of Liber Jahira)
The Kitra serve a multitude of functions with a community. They are lovers and donors, councelors and confidants. They are caretakers and healers. In rituals, such as the Sanguine Mass, they often serve as alters, acting as the fulcrum of power between Mradu and Ramkht. Most Kitra are lovers of submissive play, reveling in the attention and power it gives them. Kitra are also often skilled donors and keep their energy in top form to nourish members of their group. Often they are the keepers of an Order's Golden Circle of Donors. They are very sensual people, trained in the arts of lovemaking and enterainment, thus highly sexually charged. This Road is modeled from the example of temple concubines, young men and women pledged to their temples who offered service through their flesh. Other functions include pratical administative tasks and emotional support for the community members. Their element is Water: emotional, life giving, conductive, nurturing and supportive. They are often female, embodying the best qualities of that sex, but male kitra are not uncommon.
Kitra talents include: functioning as an energy generator, ceneter and collector in Sanguine Mass, being a good advisor and reality check for the community, being a good submissive (not a slave) in the BDSM circuit, learning how to function as a skilled donor without harming themselves, performance art and dance, skills in tantric sex and psychology. In ritual, it is their job to function as the energy vortex and vessel, and, ultimately, the kitra is the one who sends this energy forth to do its work.
Ramkht (See Page: 128 of Liber Jahira)
(Note: This passage isn't complete because the people who made the book do not understand basic graphic and design)
The Ramkht are priests of the community and are scribes, record keepers and guide the community to a productive goal. They rely on the kitra to care for them and the Mradu to safe guard them. Their Element is Air: quick, flightly, cerebral and unperdictable. Ramkht seem to be the most evenly split road between male and female, perhaps because the physical plays such a little role in their activities.
Ramkht talents include: writing, orgininizing events, leadership, and monetary affairs. In ritual, the Ramkht are the ones who take the energy from the Mradu, refine it and place it in the Kitra. They give it its purpose and direction.
I will add more later, right now this is the basics of what these roads are.
The Predator
08:11:18 - Dec 09 2005
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Through out stories, movies, games and the like all vampires have been seen as these predators of great hunger and thirst. Which, they try to suppress or not, but they do their best to try and control this bit of animalism within them. Well this Animalism seems to be present in all of us, from human to Vampire a like, yet unlike humans, we Vampires or Conditioned, have a very and unwanted connection to this side of us. Why? Well there can be many speculations about this, one idea I have read was that it
was due to this little part of our brain known as the "Dragon" which controls all basic functions of the body and even controls our desire to feed and forces us to do things, not normally us, for the sake of hunger.
Now this Dragon, or Predator as I call it, is by far, that driving desire to live, to survive through any means possible. Yet, being that of a Condition where we are constantly looking at a type of starvation that is very hard to stop, it tends to be more... powerful
or willful, in it's desire to keep us alive. So with that Said, this Predator will scream in the back of our minds, claw at our brain, trying to gain control through many means. Now most the time this type of behavior of the Predator is ravenous, it doesn't care how it takes control and how it gets its meal, it just wants to feed. Yet, being as it is apart of us, it can, and will and probably already has, used very subtle means to gain control and some how guide the mind and body to it's desired target and then
slowly take the energy it needs from that target. Which, in some cases, well more like in my case, in the past, I have slept with a woman who was not my girl friend, so to get the sexual energy from her and use it to my own ends. Which, before hand, I
thought I was in the right mind, it wasn't until it was all said done
with, that is when I noticed most of everything up to that point was
just a haze.
I feel a bit... wrong about what happened, I felt if I could give the
energy back, I would, but I know I couldn't, not without having
another incident, and this is just a small part of it all.
Now, like I said before we know the Predator is there, it will do
what it can to get it's meal and if it has to turn to subtle
manipulation of the mind to do so, it will not hesitate at all.
Now let me get to the part that will matter the most. Like I said, it
will do what it can and in a ravenous fashion, to get its food. This
will, in the end, if you let it, lead to a very violent out come. I
don't think I need to say much on this, but I will give a small bit
of detail on it.
Depending on which aspect you are drawn towards, Sanguine, Psi,
Emotion or Warrior, Priest, Councilor, will depend on your means of
feeding, your primary habits of energy ingestion. If you’re Sanguine,
your desire to draw blood, to lick the wounds of opponents to cause
pain, suffering, through any means to get your crimson fix will be a
piece of the hurtful cycle of the Predators will.
Psi, giving people headaches, mental collapse temporarily, lose of
senses, lose of balance, physical weakness, will be the things these
people will feel when being attacked by the predator. Since most Psi,
well to my knowledge as a Sanguine, feed enmass, then in mass crowds
of humans will begin to gain these symptoms, most won't know what hit
them, they will go home and take something for the problem, thinking
it was just some sort of spell that just comes and goes, which the
mind will rationalize in some means.
Next is the Emotion feeds, these one will be the creatures that find
means to hurt it's target, not for blood, well not mainly anyways,
but to gain the fear, the hate, the depression, anything dwelling on
the darker part of emotions for the high that these feelings give
you, even sex can become very dark if during sex things become to
real for the person who is being assaulted.
These are just my ideas, which I started off my own mind, and then
through some reading, gained more insight into what I believe, I
would greatly enjoy if others posted their ideas of the Predator and
see what feed back we can get from all of this.
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