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A NEW DAY
19:09 Mar 28 2010
Times Read: 614

My rage is inner deep, along with my emotional pain and confusion. I long to be with my soldier but I have accepted my marriage to Calvin and must stick with it and move forward with him. So now I am looking for places we can afford together in newport and warren places we would agree living. My two cats, tub, & stove is all I must have to be happy in a home. WE can do it together, we must, how long I will stick to this I do not know. Until our next disagreement and I go online.I am trying, it seems when one tries the other gives up or acts mean. One day at a time. I could go to the mass house of corrections on wed. march 31 should i be found guilth of assault w/a deadly weapon charge. He could go to a mass prison too if found guilty of whatever assault charge(s) on April 20th too. UGH G2g keeping positive...pot

Carmella

TABLES TURNED ON ME
19:51 Mar 26 2010
Times Read: 622




1) Court-took suspended sentence



2) Found out my little sister was sexualy assaulted in her sleep (i've been told no details or id be in jail now for his attempted murder)



3) apartment denied after court wednesday



4)Probation in RI denied transfer so my suspended sentence withdrawn and trial is WED.March 31 in 5 days,



5) Back to square one with apartment search



6) signed papers for divorce attorney did not mail in



I want to explode. I am filled with inner rage confusion chaos mental anguish and im taking weekend refuge with ambrie and her family-if ambrie comes and gets me tonight...

PLANS AND PRESENT
15:49 Mar 17 2010
Times Read: 626

I am at Ambrie's still, home tonight. To Mom's. But not for long, payday is not f ar and I got two apartmetns to look at this week. COOL! I can do it adn make it. I want to be heading for nashua by June 10th the latest. I had a great time here. And now I stay at mom's a few weeks. Mass Court next Wednesday, searching for a probpnp annumllment attorney. Free attorney, annullment quick and clean. Court trial ends or drags. Got shelter name adn address. I know I will take one dufflebag with clothes adn bathing needs, my schoolbooks, a notebook to tell of myjourney to copy for Joshua. I am excited and nervous about traveling. I will search for a job and receive my SSI/SSDI there and my meds, found a mental health center in nashua as well. One family picture album of recent everyone I love. Including m precious cats. I left Calvin and he texted me "ILOVEYOUMY2010" Q&sam the signature I made for both of us on his cell at 7 pm I was relieved he is alive and well adn home. I dont belong, I am a bird to fly free, a cat to prowl the earth and devour its enemies. I wander alone in this world. I will. I will have family to return too, like cubs wander to check surroundings and feed. I am a woman and I will maek it for myself.



Carmellablack

15:47 Mar 16 2010
Times Read: 630

I left Calvin last night taking all my belongings. I called Ambrie who came to the rescue. I needed to not be marries, he claims he will not sign divorce, with our psychiatric evaluations, he will not have too. We are nuts and not muts that mix. Great night. For me. Plans-anullment, apartment, $apt ETC

INSIDE
19:12 Mar 11 2010
Times Read: 635

Nightmares I can not even say details of with the man that touched me when I was a child and ruined my reputation in my mother's church was there, I havent had nightmares of this man-few before-but twelve years later here he is in the dreams. I dont want to be married anymore, I want to sign an annulment and runaway... but i have planning to do for that...EP gave me great advice, communication, compromise, compatablilty, respect, lovve, trust, honor, honesty, to be eachother's best friend etc... He got his hair done for me today-pay $20 on april 1st to braider. So maybe we will work, maybe im pregnant, nausea and fatique and headaches but it could be quitting cigarettes too. Digestive problems again, work, school, family etc... BYE

CARMELLA

MARRIED
18:56 Mar 08 2010
Times Read: 639

I was married to Calvin Antoine Jenkins on March 2, 2010, the 18th year of my grandfather's passing. We have known adn been seeing eachother only 57 days today (6 days after we wed) It was a simple cheap wedding. I had on all whtie from old navy top and skirt, white knee highs adn thermal top from walmart adn payless white flats. He had on a nice dark blue striped button up and jeans and jordans. Uncle Ray and mommy gave their blessing and gave me away. I had a few people my lil sis Cassandra and 2 of her friends, my uncles 21 yr old lover and a girlfriend from school's lil sister. We argue and disagree but marriage is about compromise and love. So my new name is Samantha Baker Jenkins.