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in my vocabulary it's a dreaded word that I avoid. But sadly, I am not immune to the emotion, just damn resistant of it. when I think about it, I wonder, Why I have only loved One person ever, in my entire life? Why do I not love my Own flesh and Blood? I have a nice mother two brothers (that I have met and lived with) and three Sisters ( that i grew up with) But I feel nothing for them. I smile and laugh the same as they do, but I do not love them. It never occured to me before that if they die, I wouldn't be sad that they were dead. but if I think of the person I love Dieing, my chest suddenly constricts and I can't breathe, why is that so?