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that's what I am. I'm running from everything. I don't do anything anymore... I run Because I can't handle watching the guy I like be Happy with another girl...whom I am friends with. I don't even know If I truly love the guy and I will never get the chance to find out. I want to tell him how I feel but what good would it do besides ruin a friendship if that is what you call what we have... I feel so stupid and pathetic sleeping on his couch. working at a job that I despise wishing that I could have the chance to be the cheering him up. I've done nothing for the past 3 years except screw my future up... I just want to be significant to someone I like... I am never interested in guys that like me... I want to be able to be something too. not just another fast food worker saying "can I take your order" I feel like a pile of shit. and sometimes I just want to die because I have no purpose here or anywhere. I'm just so fucked up.