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now i know who that damn thing is that stole my gf.. her name is nexes and is an old enemy of mine,,,, i wish i had killed her a long time ago when i had the chance... this is the 3 time she´s inteferse in my relationship.... damn her... now i really wants to kill her,,, so what to do now... should i rip her wings of or let her be.. someone give me a glue of what i should do about this... dainan thinks that nexes is stronger than me,, and thats bothers me like hell... but more that that she changed the profesy.. she rewrote it...

and that really pisses me of.... some one... give me a hint what i should do.... this is the worste fucking thing.... i want to kill them both, i want to kill dainan but i want her back at the same time... should i rewrigt the profetsy to and the future or should i give up.... so please send me a msg of what you think

okey, belive me you dont want to have insomnia,

its like hell, i know. coz i have it. so what should i do.. its not like i want it. but still it can be nice, you dont need to sleep to much, but in stead your body needs it, and your mind.

thats the hole problem. my mind wants to sleep and my body have to sleep to but i just cant.. so i just what to see how long my body last.



sleep tight,

why. now i cant even sleep.. being hunted in my dreams..

the last 4 days i only sleeped for about 10 hours and its 108 hours on 4 days... and i havent eaten anything in 2 days,,

dam this,, i guess im dieying again.

why sould i let my heart go on,, should i let it go. leting it die and make this body an empty shell, leting go of everything.

when a heart is dieying you stop feeling anything..

so what should i do,, should i try fighting so i can feel. or should i just let it go.

" she " wants me to fight. but should i fight for " her " ..



right now it feels like infinity, omega and thera ( try to figure out what that means :P ) but thats not the hole point, the reason i wright this is something. i dont even know why im doing this. letting everyone know about how i feel and what i think..



so if anyone have any ideas what i should do. can you send me a msg.. if you care and have the time to do that, .



this is infinity. omega and thera,

good bye for now

damn it. i lost the one i love again,

so why im i still fighting... i use to fight for her. to live.

but now that i lost her i dont want to fight for anything. but i do,

why do i fight to live,



damn, damn it, damn it. do i have any reason to fight.



when you lose some one your life feels like shit. you falling down and dont want to stand up again.

i feel that way now, but i still stand up for no reason....



is love just an illusion, in that case, why do we fight for it,, trying to keep it.

sometimes we do things coz we think thats the best to do for the moment, but when you get to make an decision that your not sure of what to do,



to day i had to do that, i was asked by a friend if i wanted to share something w/ her and another, i thought about it and sayd yes,

but now when i think of it i didnt really want to share,





and then you start asking yourself why,

why did you go along w/ it



now when i think of it and asking myself that, the only think i can come up w/ is that i wanted her to get happy..



coz now i feel pretty bad. it was a long time seens i felt this kind of feeling,



so now what, should i tell them that i dont want

to share, so i can fell better inside and make them a littel unhappy.

or should i stay quite and make them happy and still feel this way and get use to it,