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what i feel (at times)
22:19 Jul 16 2011
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As I stood in the bathtub,

Belt tightly rapped around my neck and i stab my wrists ,

I can't breathe.

I start gasping for air.

But still want to die.

I write on the mirror,

Sorry for being a pain in the ass,

Sorry for being such a biTch in the past,

But now i am gone,

But I am not dead.

I can't breathe.

I keep the belt around my neckso tight blood starts to spill,

As I feel deaths prestnce i calm down

I fall to the floor,

Belt still in tack.

No one will notice,

Cuz no one will care...









bloody tears spill down my cheek as u wipe them away,

I lay in this pool of blood as u pick me up ,

As I cry red tears

Knife in one hand, white roses in the other,

You stand above me with a look of horror upon your face.

You got a look in your eye that sends more tears down my face .

bloody tears spill down my cheek,

I choke out words that are desperate for help.

You ignore me and go away for a couple minutes,

Coming back with a knife .

u stab it into my heart

This is the night,

This is the night that I died











I'm trying something different u wont remeber me ,

Then my cutting attempts that never wourk,

You see I found this rope strong as can be ,

In my basement no one will find me ,

There's this big hook on the ceiling,

I'm wondering if maybe,

Just maybe it could work my freedom a rope away,

I take the latter set it up,

A little below the hook,

I climb up the latter tears running down my face ,

Looking down its not high,

But high enough to kill me,

I wrap the rope around the hook,

Then tie it around my neck,

Still thinking maybe,

Just maybe it will work,

Then I grab my note from my pocket,

Open it and read it out loud,

"One day every one will remmber me for who iam not for wat i am ,

But now it's caused so much pain,

I drop my note to the ground,

Looking at my wrists,

I pull out a razor,

And slit them one last time deep as i can ,

Then I drop the bloody razor,

And it falls on the note,

Making it turn bloody too,

I smile and start to giggle,

About how this is the best way,

And so easy to do,

I'm getting blood all over me,

I hear my mom up stairs,

Yelling "victoria where r u,"

Then with the rope still around my neck,

I forget its there and jump,

My air,

Is gone,

I can't,

Breathe,

I,

Guess,

This is,

It.

My family,

Is now free,

And so am,

I.

this is wat my ex wrote me and made me cry
12:02 Jul 15 2011
Times Read: 605




how much i love you



You've changed my life from a blink of the eye

The feeling in this heart of mine I cannot deny

You've made each day one I'll never forget

Everything we go through I will never regret



You are the gold I will treasure till the end

You are my soul mate and my best friend

You've done so much for me which I'm thankful for

You will always mean the world to me and so much more



You are my guardian angel sent from Heaven

The best thing in my life - my sexy number eleven

You are the meaning to the word love

My heart agrees and so would any dove



You have chased away every single fear

You are my tissue that'll wipe away any tear

You've given me life that I could live worthwhile

Thank you for the laughs and every smile



My days are a dream that has come true

Every day is beautiful all thanks to you

Now I have found what I've been looking for

It's you heart and soul and nothing more



You've showed me the world in such short time

But we've got the rest of our lives - a whole lifetime

Ill end this line with something you should already know

I love you so much more than these words show