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THIS IS WHAT MY EX-BOYFRIEND (aka. best friend AND ex-boyfriend, Phillip) WROTE THIS ON HERE (he is on my profile -- top)









....oh the painful thoughts!!!....

20:05:19 - Mar 14 2006

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well my best friend just broke up with her bf. THANK GOD! At the same time though i know she's just gonna continue with meeting lots and lots of guys and the possibility of me being shoved in the background comes clearer into view with each passing day. GOD I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF KNOWING SHE'S GONNA BE OUT WITH OTHER GUYS! What can i do??? It's a torturous cycle and i wish i could just spend all my days with her and we could both be happy. But fate won't allow it. Maybe in the future but the future is too bleak right now and its hard to tell what will happen. I will NEVER find another girl that will measure up to how much i love my best friend.



The lump in my throat makes it hard to swallow, but some how i manage to get through it....even though i don't want to. I know its a morbid thing to say but damn it this is Vampire Rave and everyone on this site is morbid! Plus, on the other hand, i've been masking my heartaches with happiness. I think my friend knows this but i'm not sure. If she does know then she knows, but if she doesn't and i'm so sorry to her feeling this way. i wish i could be happy for her and in many ways i am. But there are also a lot of times that i just want her to finally come to her senses and realize that i'm the only guy she's ever gonna need. At least thats what i want to be to her. I wanna be that guy she reaches for and the guy she kisses in the morning when she wakes up. I wanna be the guy that will protect her whenever she's scared.......

**Here are the lyrics to "I Swear" by John Michael Montgomery:



I see the questions in your eyes

I know what's weighing on your mind

You can be sure I know my part

Cuz I stand beside you through the years

You'll only cry those happy tears

And though I'll make mistakes

I'll never break your heart



I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky

I'll be there

I swear like the shadow that's by your side

I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part

I'll love you with every beat of my heart

And I swear



I'll give you every thing I can

I'll build your dreams with these two hands

We'll hang some memories on the wall

And when there's silver in your hair

Won't have to ask if I still care

'Cause as time turns the page,

My love won't age at all



And I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky

I'll be there

I swear like the shadow that's by your side

I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part

I'll love you with every beat of my heart

I swear

And I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky

I'll be there

I swear like the shadow that's by your side

I'll be there

For better or worse, till death do us part

I'll love you with every beat of my heart

I swear **