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you know none of you are probably going to read this but i dont care... life is something you know... you can have some of the most magickal moments in it and you can have the most depressing and stressful moments... i really dont know what the fuck i am saying but im just going to ramble... im 18 now i you would think in 18 years you wouldent still be an imature idiot... but i am and i dont care. My father always told me never to be afraid of anything you can be scared but never be afraid... but you know what... i am afraid of ONE thing... and that is life, you know a wise man once told me "man fears what he doesnt understand" and one thing i cant seem to comprehend is life... so thats what i fear... because i want to make a living i want to live comfortably but at what cost... the death of the planet... no i dont want that... i want to do whatever i can to stop it... i mean im not a tree hugger or anything but you know just me getting a ride to the store isnt helping.. lol i know im and idiot and im just blabbing for no reason im just confused... im currently living with my parents... wow im having SO much fun.. "yea right" i want to go to school i want to get a decent job and i want to live on my own but you know that scares me to but i cant sit here and live in fear... The price of Courage is fear... and i am not one to back down from a fear i am a man... i fear no other and i am proud of who i am... life is nothing but a series of moments.. and the only thing you can do is live them as they come... but you know i look at myself and i try to see myself in ten years and wonder who is going to be by my side i mean iv got a gal now but you never know what happens.... im just confused and have no one to talk to......... I NEED ANOTHER AWAKENING