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Is



Happy



When She Is On The Floor Mingling With The Dogs...



I NEED A NAP!!!

Today Is Another Fun Day In The Happy Go Lucky World Of Me...



Lately I've Been The Sappy Self That I Over A Year Ago That's Cause I Am Happy...In Aspects Of Certain(SP?) Areas...



1.Lil Bionic Woman-She's 7 Months Old Now...Healthy,Happy, And Mobile...Yes She's Crawling Around The House...And Eating Magazines...HEH...She's Adorable



2. My Yummy- Thanks To Him I've Begun To Feel How A Woman Should Feel...In Some Aspects...He Still Doesn't Get The Aspect That I Need Sleep And I Can't Wait Up For Him ALL The Damn Time...And When I Do He's ALWAYS OUT With His Friends....He's A Grown Man...He Can Do Whatever The Hell He Wants....But It Still Irks The Piss Out Of Me That HE Can't Give Me The Time Of Day....



3. My VR Friends- The Yummy Queen...Annerita.Deity,King Tarquin,Saharia,And NobodysFallenAngel And All Of My Other VR Friends(Too Many To Type And Mention) That Have Brought Me Back From The Depths Of Hell As I Know It....





I Love Each Of These People For Different Reasons...



I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

I



Am



Getting



BOTH ISSUES



Of The



Anita



Blake



Comic



Batman Eat Your Heart Out...:D

Now A While Ago I Was Flipping Channels And I Came Across This....







Law And Order Special Victims Unit...MUPPET STYLE!

Turkey Lurkey Day Is Tommorow...Which Means My Job Will Be CRAZY HECTIC!!



Mass Pumpkin Pie!



HELP HELP HELP!!

What



To



Do???



Anyone Have Any Ideas On How To Settle This???



I'm



All....



Ears......



He's Been Very Distant.....He's Not Talking

He Went Out With His Friends AGAIN...



He Always Is Out With His Friends....



He Has No Job....



I Understand The Need To Hang Out With Your Friends...But Night After Night After Night...And To Blow Me Off For Your Friends After You Told Me The Previous Night That YOU Would Talk To Me....



I Told Him This...Fine I Need TO Not Talk To You For A Few Days To Get My Head Straight...



His Response...FINE!



I Got Upset And Cried At Work...Which I Never Ever Do....And I Left Early From Work Cause Of This Shit....My Friend From High School Listened To Me Grip About All Of This...



I Love Him...He Knows That I Love Him...



He Says That I Need Time Out With My Friends....Excuse Me But What Time Do I Have....This Is My Day



6am-Lil Bionic Woman Wakes Mommy Up And Says Im Hungry FEED ME!

6:30am-Breakfast Is Finished...Now Time For A Ba-Ba And Playtime

9:30-10am-Morning Nap

9:30-10:30am-Mommy Gets Time To Herself

10:30 Or Later-Lil Bionic Woman Wakes Up And Wants Her Pants Changed...

11am-Time For Lunch And More Play Time

12pm To 12:30Pm-Time For Our Long Long Nap.....:D

2:30 Pm-Waking Up From My Nap And More Play Time

2:45 Pm-Mommy Gets Ready For Work

3:25 Pm-Nana And Lil Bionic Woman Take Mommy To Work

4pm To 9:30 Pm-Mommy Works

9:45-10 Pm-Mommy Gets Home From Work And Takes A Shower

10-11pm- Tv Watching And Listening to my Mp3 Player

11:30Pm-1:00 Am-Talking To Him

1:00 Am- Time For Bed



Then The Cycle Starts Over Again



What's A Girl To Do???? I Don't Want To Lose Him But I Almost Lost It And Him Last Night...I've Told Him All Of This...And He Says That He'll Work On It...But I Haven't Seen Any Of That Yet...



What...



To...



Do..????





Edit: In My Madness Saturday Night I Punched The Fence..My Wrist Hurts Like A Son Of A Bitch

Why Am I So Fucking Confused....And Why In The Hell Is My Mind Going A Mile A Minute And I Feel SO Fucking Exaushted After My Mind Going A Mile A Minute???



It Would Be Alot Better If He Was Here With Me...But I Don't Know When That's Going To Happen...And People Aren't Helping The Situtation By Messaging Me If I Want To Talk About It OR If I'm Still Pissed At Them....



There's Only A Handful Of People I Talk To About My Feelings..



Deity

Dahila

My Sean

Duckie

Batman

My Best Friend



The Reason I Don't Like To Talk About It Is Cause If I Talk About It..The Situtation Gets Worse Before It Gets Better....



I Think If He Was Here With Me It Would Confirm Some Things And Reassure Myself...

"Life Is Like A Box Of Choclates...Ya Never Know What You're Gonna Get" -Forrest Gump



Why Is It That The Yummy Is Fulfilled But My Heart Is Still Empty?? Could It Be Because I Need Some Sort Of Anchor Around...



Or Is It That He's Not Here...



He'll Be Here Soon...



*Sigh*

Should I Or Shouldn't I...



That's The Decision To Make...



I Love Him...He Knows I Do...



I Just Want Him Here.....And If He Continues To Flirt With Other Women...I Don't Know



What



To



Do??

Why Do I Feel So Empty???



Is It Cause I Can't Trust Easily?



Or Is It That He Isn't Here With Us....



*Goes To Think*