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There's this girl I'm in love with and her name is Arrykka ...but she lives in Washington ...pretty damn far away from Texas ....but you know its not easy staying in contact I would do anything to live near her or even she her for one day ..the only reason I know her is because she is my ex g/f from the sixth grade ...also my first love! ....man I miss her so damn much ...but I can't help to think that she is starting not to like me anymore ...which I hope is not true but ....things like never seem to go that way I want them to ...like love...what is .:love:. really? ....does anyone know what is really means ...I know I do or I'm pretty sure I know what it means for me its Arrykka! thats what I think at least....I care for her so much...only if ever one knew what she ment to me ...I know some of the people that might read this is thinking ....(your stupid you should just move on to someone closer to you).....But I'm not untill Arrykka says her self that she wants me to move on ....I'm only 15 ....I'm still young and stupid but...and really don't have nothing worth looking forward to ..oh yeah I do ...the person I love more then life it self ...you should know who it is by now ...if not give you a hint its starts with an A and sounds like Erica...haha I'm stupid ...she says she loves me but I really don't know what she thinks of me because I'm not her ...well that should be enough for today ...I'll maybe write in here tomorrow..

Whats the point of going on if the person you love more then life it self is mad at you would they even noitce if you killed your self right now because of how guilty you felt about it all .....well I guess the only reason I'm talking like this is because I messed up with someone I truly and deeply care for and Love I hate my self for what I've done to her but she lives in Washinton and I live in Texas way to far away I would walk but common sense it would take days for me to get there ....but would you make the trip? ...I know I would Because If she were to get hurt in anyway I would make sure that person pays if not by pain by death ...all I'm saying is If anyone would ever think about hurting Gaara I promise you .....you"ll be sorry