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(what people think:) i dont care ill be fine but when i break down they tell me to forget it its stupid and thats what i do...(or so they think) she sits and dwells over all the things that are going wrong all her mistakes every thing the truth is shes breaking down completely destroyed inside shattered into billions and billions of peices but no one sees it they all think the girl behind be ice blue eyes and beautiful smile is the happiest kid in the world when really shes the lonliest she the most broken the most destroyed...

shes the one slowly dieing inside till she feels nothing...

yet even those who look the deepest into her eyes cant see it they dont understand...

all she wants is to..

to be with someone who understands her who is going through the same shit as her...

or is willing to stick with her through it all yet...

the girl hiding behind those eyes is a whole new story...

shes the one slowly breaking down and becoming nothing but dust in the wind reshapeing...



2.) HIM...



her mind is screaming racing melting scattering exploding and all she does is sit there and smile in her mind she hears

"HOW DONT YOU SEE IT ????"

"HOW DONT YOU NOTICE???"

she sees him every day and breaks again and again and again....

why did he do this he left her for dead...

he dosnt care why did he stop caring ....

she dosnt under stand what she did she wants to know what she did cause its literally killing her... small scars dot her arms telling you the full story but you dont notice why dont you knotice how dont you notice she misses you she needs you she...

she loves you...

but you dont care ...

you never have and never will....

you will never understand how much you killed her cause after that she never loved again...



3). BREAKUP.....



you left me

you left me

you left me

you left me

its all thats going through her head she lays on the floor continuously crying and crying and crying

and crying

and crying she cant stop she refuses to stop everything is a blurr like she drank to much alcohol

she layes in the tube her mind and soul and heart slowing the blood dripping from her vains to quickly for her to care any more

and all she can think of is you

you...

you...

you...

she loved you and you put her out destroyed her

it was the weekend so you didnt know...

hadnt realized that friday...

friday was the last time you would ever see her again...

no more her no more "we" "us" nomore life cause hers was slowly draining away slipping away like water from a cup and the water slowly poors on to the ground nothing left like the blood in her veins nothing more but a ribbon of crimson hate love sickness denial pain...

and wanna know what her last thought was...

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"i will always love you"