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(I felt the need to bring this poem back because it describes a feeling that just wont go away, that haunts me everyday.)



Endless Thoughts



Laying in bed cryin

while darkness drapes over me

thoughts pass through my mind

all over again

I can't make them go away

Forever stuck in my brain

to make me relive all over

again the heartache I

go through

My heart aches for someone

who will somehow make it disappear

who will actually make me happy

and not play with my love

that I'm so eager to give

Endless Thoughts

entering amd leaving my mind

undoubtedly going to come back

again reminding me of all the painful

and some happy but yet all ended in sadness

You wonder what you can do

but there are realy no answers

are they? or am I wrong?

If I gave in to immortal thoughts,

My immortal desires, Will I lose myself??

Lose myself, and fade into that abyss

that seems to be always right behind me.

Swallowing the little pieces of my damned soul, leaving me empty and alone.



Will it ever stop?

My carnal desires taking over my conscious,

taking over my actions.

Then it leaves and lets go off its grip on my mind.

Only to come back around again,

taunting my emotions,

releasing my fears, begging them to come to the surface.



To come and resurface these feelings will only unleash havoc on those closest to me.

Not only them but also to myself.



~Akana aka Traviesa~

Rage and frustration, seeps through my pores,

invigorates whats left of my soul.



My only refuge, is music

It calms me, takes me into my mind,

Into my dark thoughts

My sinister dreams

and my evil ways



*laughs evily*

Soon it will not be all fun and games,

You will get what you deserve, and

I will not lose my nerve, I wont back down.



Soon it will not be all fun and games

When I am at your throat,

smelling that sweet nectar of life through the pores of your skin.



With that powerful Blood Lust expression in my eyes,

hypnotizing you

paralyzing you so youre completely under my control.



Soon it will be over for you,

There will be no need to scream, to resist and certainly no need to stress about your pathetic life.



But as for me there is relief from the sadness and heartache in the world for all eternity.



~Traviesa~

Your look, your smile, your scent ... gone.



The look of your eyes seem to be burned

into my mind.



Those eyes who saw right through to what

lies beneath my surface, that saw right

through into my blood stained soul.



Those eyes forever etched into the depths of my memory.



Eyes that held my gaze so easily and

spoke to me, spoke to my heart.



I could see everything in those eyes,

your pain, your passion ...... your love



I wonder even now if it was really I that

you loved or were your eyes so mysterious

and cold that I couldn't figure out their meaning.



Now I know the sight of you and your eyes

will never be within my reach.



To see those eyes again .... only once more....

just so I know you actually truly loved me



But that will never come to be because you are

gone.... you left without me



Now I'm here to live for all eternity without

you and your love





~TRAVIESA~

The unnatural hunger

which clouds my mind,

dissolves my emotions so all

I can think about is The Craving.



The Thirst

where visions play over and over

show me the hunt, my captured prey

abd the savory taste of them,

flowing through their veins, now

running hot down my throat.



My Cravings

the blood lust is unbearable,

the craving for more is burning in my mind,

the sensation of the life force of others

entering my damned souls,

fills me with satisfaction, with release.



Not until later, when I come to my senses

I feel that twang of remorse, of guilt.

But sooner or later it always fades away.



~Traviesa~