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It's weird. It's kind of funny. At the same time, it's really not. Back then, I couldn't even think of you. I wouldn't dare. A single brief thought of you would bring me crashing down. I would become depressed. I hated myself. I hated myself for what you did to me. For months and months I had nightmares of you, nightmares of you coming back. In my dreams I could feel you and hear your voice, and that was enough for me to want to sleep forever. I never wanted to wake up. Now? I could care less. I carry what you did to me and it's not as heavy as it once was. I can think of you and not feel a single ounce of pain. I can remember the day I lost everything. The day I realized you hated me. That you didn't love me anymore and thats why you left without an explanation. I can remember messaging you, constantly apologizing for whatever I had done wrong and just wanting closure. Closure I still haven't really been given. I can think of you and feel nothing. I have no shame, no pain, no anger.

I realized I can be happy without you.