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Thursday, August 17, 2006



~(Current mood: melancholy)~



I LOVE MY DAUGHTER....



WHY AM I NOT ALOUD TO BE HER MOTHER?



I treated her like one of my little princessess!



I gave her all she needed and wanted.......and then some!



I NEVER abuse my daughters!



I don't do drugs...



I drink sometimes....Never get drunk around my kids!!



I do not smoke!



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I do listen to rock, industrial, gothic music.



I have tattoos....& peircings



I wear black eyeliner & black clothes.



I didn't know this was a FUCKIN' crime!!



Soooooo, somebody tell me WHY can I not be my child's MOTHER!?!



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Tommy Lee has kids, He takes good care of them!



Ozzy Osbourne has kids, He takes good care of his kids!



Janine has kids, She takes good fucking care of her kids!!



WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??

Wednesday, August 09, 2006





~(Current mood: crushed-heartbroken)~





My Ex's Mother, has MY DAUGHTER calling her "Mommy or Mama"



& calling me "Mema" (Which means GRANDMOTHER to my daughter),



How the HELL can I make things right and get MY DAUGHTER back??



This EVIL woman has MY DAUGHTER,lieing to me,being sneaky...



And when MY DAUGHTER goes back to her...She tells that woman



EVERYTHING she saw & whatever....



MY DAUGHTER call me today for MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY,



She called me "Memaw!" DAMN IT!!



MY DAUGHTER will be 7 this September 6th,



I was the one that had her in MY WOMB for 9 months!!



I am NOT a FUCKING serragate MOTHER!!



I WANT MY DAUGHTER!!



I don't want that woman FUCKING with MY DAUGHTER'S head!!



She is SO confused!! DAMN IT!!







THANKX TO MY LUCKY BIRTHDAY STARS!!



I have a recording of MYDAUGHTER calling her "Mama!"



But,now I need to record it on to something and show it to SOMEONE!!



WHO CAN I SHOW IT TO??



WOULD THEY BELIEVE ME NOW??



This woman is CRAZY!!



She thinks MY DAUGHTER is HERS!!



HOW CAN I PROOVE that I am NOT th one that is CRAZY,



That SHE IS THE ONE!!



I WANT MY DAUGHTER BACK....DAMN IT!!

Thursday, August 03, 2006



~(Current mood: frustrated)~





I really am wanting to get MORE tattoos & peircings...



I really LOVE the PAIN,



I have the tattoos drawn, & I know what I want peirced!



I just wish it didn't cost so much!!



I want 4 more peircings...(for now)



and 3 tattoos. DAMN IT!!



I NEED MORE MONEY!!

Sunday, July 30, 2006



Current mood: angry





FUCK!! FUCK!! FUCK!!



YES...This is my favorite word! FUCK YOU!!



How can you call it "Mediation",When it's NOT what my daughter



wants...& it's not what my Ex or I want!?!?



Why am I being treated like a criminal,



when I haven't even gone to jail or done drugs...



How can I get unfairly JUDGED by my image & false allagations,



& EVERYTHING is to be ok?!?! WRONG!!



Why should I NOT be pissed off, You have takn my daughter,



& givin' her to a woman that is telling her that I hate her & I'm bad!



I FUCKIN LOVE MY DAUGHTER, & YOU ARE WRONG



FOR TAKING HER AWAY FROM ME,AND GIVING HER TO THAT DEVIL!!



THAT WOMAN IS EVIL!! SHE DOSE NOT TREAT MY DAUGHTER GOOD!!



I PROMIS TO GOD & MY DAUGHTER,



I WILL LEGALLY GET HER BACK,& THERE WILL BE NOTHING THAT WOMAN CAN DO TO STOP ME!!



NO-ONE CAN STOP A MOTHER'S TRUE LOVE FOR HER CHILD!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006



Current mood: anxious





FUCK! Ok...



I have to go back to court tomarrow...( 7-27-06 )

I know I'm totally NOT ready for this!

I feel like I'm losing my FUCKIN' mind!

I feel SO ANGRY & ANXIOUS,



but WORRIED at the same time!

I don't want to lose my daughter,



to my FUCKIN' Ex's mother,

I don't want her raising MY daughter!!

UGH!! I feel such RAGE right now!

I WISH ALL OF THIS CRAP WOULD GO AWAY,

& MY DAUGHTER WOULD COME HOME!!



AAHHHHHH!!!! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006



Current mood: crappy



I fuckin' LOVE milk...



I love icecream,cheese,creamsause



Anything with milk....But,if I don't have my "Lactaid" pills



I AM FUCKED!! I fuckin' HATE milk!



My stomic hurts like a mother-fucker & I end up sitting on the



porcilen goddess for an hour or two! It SUCKS big donkey dick!!



THERE HAS TO BE A CURE FOR THIS!!

Current mood: angry





From:Duane



I just want you to know. Dispite all things said and done between us there is still a small piece of me that loves you and is willing to take you back. But it would take a lot of time, effort, and help for me to love and trust you as I once did. Take this any way you wish as it is the truth as I feel it. If in the very, very unlikly event that we saw to give each other another chance I would definatly need to get councelling in order to re learn how to meet your needs and communicate better with you. talk at you later.



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First off, He KICKS me out of "our" home...



Tells me to get my shit & get the fuck out!!



Then he tells me that he feels sorry for his daughter,



Because her mother is so fuck up in the head (He says this in front of our daughter & my oldest daughter & my friend that was helping me move out!)



This all happened a week before Christmas,



We had been arguing about the court shit & having to drive back a forth to Houston for about 4 years...



Sooo,It was bound to happen sooner or later.



I have been gone for 7 months,



And now,He would be "willing" to take me back?!?!



WTF!?!



He is the one that WOULD NOT show me his emotions...



WOULD NOT tell me what he was thinking,



WOULD NOT hug me or snuggle with me.



WOULD NOT talk to me...Unless he was BITCHING!!



He would rather play with his PS2!



Not that there is anything wrong with the PS2,



I love playing games also, But when your WIFE



wants your attention (Because she loves you)



GIVE IT TO HER!!



I TOLD YOU "I feel like we are growing apart."



I TOLD YOU "I want to talk to you."



WHATEVER!!!! It's "OVER" now!!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006



Current mood: aggravated





OK, I went to court last month on the 15th,



for my oldest daughter,They decided on a (continuance),



So Now I have to go back JULY 27th for the (Mediation)



And I have to go to back to court on AUGUST 28th.



I don't even know if it will be "Final court"



My daughter has gotten in to th habit of LIEING,



I love my daughter,Don't get me wrong,



But, if she was a 30 yr old woman.............



I have had C.P.S. visit me 4 times...With nothing to find!



Now I have to pay for the courts investigater to do some investigation on ME even further,Until court.



I feel as though I am "loosing it!" I am comming undone.



All I want is for my daughter to know that I LOVE her,



(Because she is being told otherwise!!)



ALL I WANT IS TO BE HER MOTHER,



I WANT HER TO LET ME BE HER MOTHER!



I WANT HER TO STOP LIEING!!!!!!!!



And to NOT be judged for the way I am!

Wednesday, May 03, 2006



Current mood: aggravated





I love my children with all my heart.

I would do anything for them...(with in reason!)

I would die for them!

I am going to get their names tattooed on my body,

I love them so much!

But,I have a tattoo and some peircings,

I like dragons,lord of the rings and Harry potter...

And aparently this makes me a "Satan Worshiper"

That I am giving mental anguish to my daughters.

So I am being forced to fight in court and prove my love for them?!

I don't smoke or do drugs.

I don't get in to trouble with the law.

I don't understand...What is the problam here?

Why do they want to hurt me by taking my kids?

Why do they think I am not a good enough mother?

Don't they know that it would kill me?!

I don't think they would care if it did!

I die a little each day someone reminds me...

I have to go back to court and get nailed back up on that cross.

I know it would make them SO happy if I would just die,

And sometimes...Just sometimes,

I feel as tough I don't have the strength to fight anymore

But,Then I look in to my daughter's eyes and I feel strong.

I wish and hope that the Gods will grant me this ONE wish!

PLEASE help me to protect my daughter this 15th!



With ALL my love

THANKYOU!