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I hurt inside all the time.

No One Understands...

The only way to make me feel-

better is to cut into my flesh.

But then people will worry;

and say "Why do you (hurt) yourself?"

But what they don't understand,

It feels good, It makes the pain go away.





I don't know why, I've always been this way.

I hurt if I don't cut into my flesh.

The burn of the cut,

The warmth of the blood,

The high of the flow,

The sting of the air,

OH! THE PAIN!!! :)



By:CMS

Where do the days go?

I woke up, it was dark.

When I go to sleep, it's dark.

I would love to see the sun rise again,

and Oh! to see the beautiful sun set.

I wish I could take a picture, And marvial at

the wonderful art that the Gods have created forever! But then, I go to bed and dream of them. As I am dreaming...i wish I could be

half as good as an artist as the Gods.

I wonder if anybody sees the world the way I do.



By: CMS

Five years ago, I had to leave my heart

in a city, Don't worry about what city.

Just a city, And for this I want no pity.

I left my heart, For which I could die!

Now, all I want to do is cry!

I still try to keep it in my life today.

My heart hates me now. It dose everything it can to make me mad, when all I want to do is show it love! My heart lies to me, It knows that will bother me! My heart ignores me, knowing that will aggrovate me.

My heart will tell me I'm a bad person and stomp all over my feelings, and my heart won't give me a second thought. My heart will call me names.

Now, Why dose my heart hate me so?

Because I left it in a city, far away from me,

Where it could grow wild and free, When I should have kept it so close that it could never hurt me!



By: CMS

I was born of fire,

A fire that is always raging.

I can never compleatly extinguish it.

How can I calm the inferno?

The fire wants to take over.

I fight with it everyday.

If I were to let it out, it would

totally consume me, and never let me go.

I'm like a volcano,

and the lava is just waiting to erupt.

I was born of fire,

No one must get hurt!

I have this fire, It must stay inside!

Locked away, I will keep it.

This anger I must hide!

I can only hope, one day it will subside!



By: CMS