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"It didn't have to be like this ..." The words that changed my life

forever, these words took me from my family and put me into a new

family. I suppose the only way for you to understand is take you back

to

the beginning, the beginning of my life as a woman and the ending of a

life as a child. I was 16 years old, just barely driving, learning

about

my body, about my desires. High school was a difficult place to be, the



other students were so judgmental. I only had a few close friends, my

best friends were Claire and Larry. Claire was a free spirit... She had



found her womanhood long before I and had been experimenting with

different men, woman and of course boys our own age. Her number of

sexual partners changes every weekend, last she told me she was at 22,

who knows where she is now. Still, I love her to death she is my best

friend. Larry is the brains, a loyal friend he is always there for

Claire and i . Definitely the typical male friend, you know the one who



is secretly in love with one of his friends but everyone knows. I am

the

one Larry is in love with, he's a friend ... I'm sure he understands

that I just don't see him as anything else. My parents are still

married

and they never argue nor ever have petty fights. I only wish I can be

as

fortunate as they. My older sister Lily is a different type of person,

she's away at college yet she calls and visits as much as she can ...

She's let me drink with her a few times, even take a few puffs of her

joint but nothing really big. I am not into it that much, but I love

the

thrill of knowing it is illegal and my parents would be completely

pissed at me. My younger brother Billy is 11, he plays soccer and

really

doesn't have much to talk about besides video games and how much he

wants to grow older to play the graphic video games. What can I say

about myself? I am 16, my name is Sophie I play the piano ... Not as

well as I should, but I tend to listen to modern music rather than

practice in my free time. My free time changes completely soon so that

habit is pretty much useless. Robert... Well Robert is what this is all



about. He is older of course, he is 10 years older than me and it

doesn't seem like a big difference but believe me, it is. He is the

reason my life is the way it is, the reason why I can no longer speak

to

my family or friends, the reason why I no longer live in Florida. He is



the reason why I am now such a horrible person, in the beginning though



it wasn't like this.





Claire and I went out on a Friday night to one of her friends, friends,



friends house (you know how that goes). It was odd ... A different type



of party, I've never been to a party like this. But it intrigued me ...



I really felt comfortable... The people were dark ... Not only their

clothing and make up but their personalities.. Probably their souls.

Now

why were we there? Claire was the type of girl who once she put her

sights on someone she wouldn't stop until she screwed them. Well one of



her "sights" was at this party, I didn't know what she saw in him.

Don't

get me wrong, I'm not a shallow person, but usually Claire went for the



preppy jock boys not the guy who kept to the shadows and wore pure

black... I think his mysterious side is what caught her attention. Well



as soon as we get to the party she starts to stalk him ... His name is

Johnson. He actually is a nice person, but very dark, very deep with

odd

sexual fetishes (I'll tell you more about that later). I knew a few

people there... A few girls in my gym class, a few guys in my theater

class... All of them said hello to me and I said hello back... I'd

never

be rude... They all offered me alcoholic drinks, but to tell you the

truth... I'm not a big drinker, that's Claire’s job. I was fortunate

enough to find a bottle of water, and the patio and a comfy chair ... I



had a feeling I was going to be there for a long time. A few people

walked out onto the patio, their smoke smelt horrible .. They would

suck

the toxins into their lungs, and then blow them right back out into my

general direction. I remember peering through the smoke at one point

and

catching these deep eyes staring in my direction ... When I realized

that no one was behind me or near me I figured out that this stare was

for me. The smoke and night mist was too thick to see the face of my

admirer, then out of nowhere random words shot out to my face from a

different directions "why aren't you drinking?" after a few seconds of

staring into the direction of my admirer my eyes glanced up to the new

voice. "Drinking?" I was confused at where I was for a moment .. "Oh!

Drinking.. Oh.. I'm driving... I shouldn't drink". He stared at me and

handed me a red plastic pixie cup "here have a beer" I took it... And

stared into it.... "Thank you" after he nodded he took my bottle of

water and held it ... I turned back to those admiring eyes, but they

were gone .... A small sigh escaped my lips and I turned back to the

beer man... He handed me back my bottle of water and said "just in case



you change your mind". I took it and smiled... After 20 minutes of

talking to beer man who's name is Dudley I had finished the beer he

gave

me... And it seemed almost instantly he had another waiting for me...

He

spoke of loosening up and letting myself go....having a little bit of

fun. I drank that second beer so fast.... Dudley’s hand wandered to my

thigh ... I didn't really notice at first until I leaned over to set my



plastic cup down.... That's when I felt his lips on my neck.. I pulled

away from him "Dudley.... Come on now... I don't... That's a bit too

forward for me" he looked at me and nodded "I'm sorry .... Here..."

Handing me my bottle of water "maybe you should drink some of this". I

remember thinking he was sweet...I took the water and took a sip

...looking back over to the area where the admirer was ...I saw eyes

moving.... He must have walked away... After blinking several time... I



started to sweat...I finished my bottle of water and was still sweating.



"You don't look so good... Here lets get you to the bathroom". My legs

felt numb I stood only to fall into Dudley's chest... He picked me

up....my eyelids felt like they had weights on them .... I apologized

for being such a light weight... I never really drank before, but I

didn't think this feeling was right .. I felt so ...funky. I remember

Dudley laying me down on the bed and instantly kissing my lips... I

moved my head... I really didn't want to kiss him... His hands starred

to wander down into the top of my shirt... I kicked my legs... I tried

speaking to him but nothing but moans and gargles came out.....his

hands

moved down into my bra and over my breasts... His fingers pinched my

nipples... I wanted to kick him and leave but I couldn't move. Nor

could

I keep my eyes open... I felt worried when I heard a rip... It was my

shirt.... He spread it open and practically started drooling over my

breasts.... He licked between my breasts like they were dripping with honey, his wet tongue worked it's way up my neck until his

tongue

was forced into my mouth.. parting my lips and exploring further and further.... I moaned but not with pleasure... With

agony.... It hurt.... My body was not even close to any kind of

pleasure...Dudley then pulled my breasts out of my bra ..his firm hands squeezing rather harshly his attention was now within his tongue... it flew straight to my nipples.. Sucking on them hard... I could now feel his teeth pulling

on my left one... It hurt more and more each second... I could not move



one bone in my body, it was like I was in a coma.... Or one of those

horrible dreams where you watch yourself outside of your body. His rough hands squeezed my hip bones and after a few moments he

ripped

my pants back and my button flew off... His hand crawled down into my

panties, His hand trailed along my vagina ..while he let himself squeeze again ... his ring finger and index finger parted my pubic lips...after a few moments I could feel his thumb kneading on the rough bubble of skin... it hurt for the most part...My eyes closed then slowly opened....then closed. I felt and was completely helpless... my awareness was lost...I was slipping into a different realm of reality and even with all this torture I felt sleepy.. I do remember though right before anything

inserted inside of me I heard the door open.... A man walked in... A dark

figure..the outlining of his body was amazing. his eyes pierced right through me... If I weren't so out of it I'm sure I would have been able to recognize him.. it was my admirer....I don't remember a lot after this happened...t he joy of being rescued... I did feel a prick on my arm... to this day I don’t know what it was... what happened next is an empty void. It seemed like only a few moments...but it had been hours that I was sleeping... I was no longer in the house that the part was at .. but in a dark room ... wrapped in silk sheets and sweating horribly... I looked over and saw my clothes folded neatly on the chair next to the bed...this is when I realized I was completely naked. I sat up holding the silk sheets to me tightly..my eyes were not adjusting to the darkness at all... I peered through the room but couldn’t see a soul. My legs still felt wobbly... I tried to move them over to the left of the bed, but applying pressure to stand was out of the question. Just then I heard the most comforting voice "please my dear... lay back down...". Of course I didn’t, I think I jumped 50 feet in the air, the room was completely silent until then and it scared me to death. I tried to stand..but it was as if gravity slapped me in the ass and pushed me over...I hit face first on the cold floor and lost the gripping of my sheet.. I could hear the footsteps coming to claim me... "Darling... I am not here to harm you, please.. you still need rest." My savior picked my naked body up as if I was a kitten and placed me kindly back into the bed... Even though I was naked...for a few moments his shadow hovered over me...then I could see his figure reaching down to pick up the sheet.... he placed it over my body and his cold hand touched my forehead...."You're still a bit too warm..." He reached over to a nightstand and grabbed a wet cold cloth and placed it on my forehead. "I know it is non of my business darling, but .. you really should never accept drinks from a stranger... anywhere". I was baffled I really didn't know what to think or say..the only thoughts that could come out were "I didn't think I'd react that way to alcohol". He let a soft chuckle out and placed his hand on my shoulder. "Darling, do you drink a lot?" I then laughed softly "No.. actually that was the first time I’ve ever tried alcohol". He sighed and softly squeezed my shoulder "Darling that is not a normal reaction to alcohol, the reason why you reacted that way is because he drugged you ..I am truly sorry this happened to you." Again, shocked, I was completely shocked. "Did he... do anything to me?" His index finger trailed along my jaw line

"No sweetheart... your innocence remains." I sat up and leaned back against the pillow... staring into the darkness.... "Can you turn on a light? Please... I would kind of like to see your face..." He instantly reached over to the same night stand "Oh of course, how terribly rude of me" then clicked the switch and a low glowing beam of orange softly crawled across the room.... when he looked at me ... My heart skipped a beat... my stomach went numb... beautiful... he was amazing.. His eyes were bright blue, his skin was so soft and creamy looking with rosy cheeks and soft freckles... black jet hair fell across his forehead... his shoulders muscular... but natural... not like a brute that spends hours upon hours in the gym. He stared down at me and for once I was completely speechless... the first thing that came to mind slipped past my lips..and as it slipped I actually reached my hand to grab those words "You're an angel.." He laughed and simply smiled, his rosy cheeks turned a shade darker...





His cold fingers reached to touch my forehead and he smiled deeper. He was definitely older than me...not by much, but I could tell ... he was older. I tried my best to smile, I felt like smiling, but my body felt dirty.. I was sweaty, sticky, hardly attractive at all... Not really worth smiling. It was as if he read my mind, or my telling facial expressions. "Darling, when you feel up to it...the restroom is right through those doors" he pointed to a pair of old double doors with an antique fashioned doorknob. "Thank you, I feel disgusting" just then I tried to move my legs over and stand, but still... my body was weak... I just remember my head feeling way heavier than normal. I was instantly back on the pillow...and again my eyelids felt heavy ... I laid back and watched him walk away... then I was asleep again. I never looked at the clock the whole time I was there... time really didn't seem important. I'm sure it was a few good hours of sleep... as soon as I woke.. I felt completely new... I looked around the room, but he wasn’t there... did I dream him? Yet I am still in this room? I stood ..while keeping my body wrapped with the sheet and slowly made my way to the restroom... A shower, it looked amazing.. Like I haven’t seen one in ages. I closed the double doors but they didn’t lock... usually I would be uncomfortable by this... but as I said before nothing really felt important at the moment. I turned the water on... a blast of freezing cold water flowed from the hose for a good few minutes until I learned how to adjust the heat (isn’t funny how every shower is completely different?). I dropped the sheet from me and pulled the shower curtain back then stepped into the hot shower... Oh how the water felt like heaven.. my body steamed... I ran my fingers through my wet head and massaged my head for a few moments...then resting my forearms on the wall... I leaned forward to let the water run down my neck and back... I pressed my head to the wall and relaxed... It felt like I were washing sins away.. I know that must sound silly, but truly its the only way I can describe it. I've never seen so many different shampoos and conditioners... It was like a store.. I had a large variety to pick from... some of the brands I never even heard before... I popped open a few bottles and smelt them... one smelt horrible.. so I placed it right back where I had found it...until I found one that smelt like spring flowers.. I squeezed a decent amount into my hand and accidentally dropped the bottle... it made a loud thud...but I really didn’t think anything of it. I lathered my hair up like normal and heard the double doors open quite harshly.. the shower curtain was thrown open and I turned and screamed.....there he was... staring at me... full body nude...My hands were still working the shampoo through my hair I stopped and he blushed rapidly then closed the curtain . "Oh my dear... I am so sorry.. I heard something fall and I thought maybe you had fallen... I am truly so sorry.." I smiled, it really didn’t bother me... but I was completely red.. "oh..uh.. it's alright..I hope its okay ...I’m using...your... shampoo" It was silent for a moment then he softly laughed "Oh no, that's fine.. help yourself" we just left it as that... he walked out of the room... and I still stood there... after a moment I washed the shampoo out of my hair and leaned back against the wall... it was a completely different sensation on my body now...even though my entire body was wet and warm from the water... an aggravating throbbing quickly started between my legs.. it felt more moist and even more warm... I never really had felt this before... so i didn't understand... my small pink nipples were now harder than before... goose bumps appeared everywhere ....when the water streams hit my breasts I almost moaned....my hands instantly covered my breasts and massaged them slowly at first... it felt so amazing... I crossed my legs...but still the throbbing was there...I've never touched myself... and didn't even know where to begin or how to do it.. so I did leave it alone... it would go away.. but the more I massaged my breasts the more harder the throbbing continued... I turned to face the shower wall...I pressed my chest and nipples against the cold tile..turning my head to the left, I rested my cheek against the tile as well...and slowly let my hand wander down to my thighs... I remember being shaky.. I ever so slowly reached up between my legs and passed through the short curly hair...a felt a nub of skin which as soon as I touched it... my mouth opened... i pulled away... and squeezed my legs tighter together... I spread them again and let my finger go back to the same spot then... again.. pulled it away.. it felt so amazing.. as I reached again...I rubbed for a moment then a knock at the door. "my dear...are you hungry?"...I jerked my hand away like I was being watched and sat back up... rinsing my hand off I stuttered "uh.. yes.. um. I'm sure I could eat".