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22:10 Nov 08 2019
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I had the most amazing dream.
ofcourse i had forgotten it by the time i had woken but
on the way home in the train it came back.

the most beautiful thing i have long seen, if ever.

In the dream. i was in my apartment living room and looked out the window.
to the city.
it was night, the moon was HUGE, and i mean huge! it had a little brighter colors and
next to it was a even more HUGE planet.

it was blue, with a little tint of green and yellow.
RIGHT next to earth..

i just gazed and said wow..

i will cherish that sight for as long as i can.

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Hel ena is my second first name
20:22 Nov 08 2019
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And nothing,
It brought me nothing.

I'd say come here.
Make me forget the world for a minute
but that would be selfish cus id
probably fuck up or leave again..

Just like they do.
They did.
So i push it.
See how far i can push it.

The amount of trouple they be
willing to go through shows me its the
same amount of care they have.

dysfuntional and unhealthy way
but hey
so am i.

Just trying, trying to be honnest.

Its not lieing if you exclude to tell
to let people know.
is it?

I would if i could.
I just want somebody.
Somebody worth my time.
Somebody that thinks i am.

worth going through hell for.

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It is ALL impulsive ramblings..
22:19 Nov 07 2019
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And now you're lonely
Cus you pushed em all away

No one wipes your tears
or hug your body & soul.
You did this
You did this to yourself.

So be brave
Stand up &
Walk the steps.

Know that a warrior
Walk your shoes &
Those who fought it
fell.

You can only depend on you
Find your mission or just
Spread your wings.

Cage your demon
Allow your angel to roam
Find what belongs to you
The reason of your being
You're on your own

Its time for another kind of battle.
The battle with yourself.

Now you're all lonely.
They all fell.
You're on your own
Own

Own...

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Hybrids.
22:02 Nov 06 2019
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I want to be loved.
unconditionally.

Not a boring everyday
human thing

Through thick and thin
Fire and ice
Pain and joy.

I dont need a label
I dont need a pact
No signed contract.

Just a friend, a brother
or sister.

Someone that see and feel me
and all that i am
that match my being in ways only
they can
whom do not care for my scars
but recognise the beauty within
this grim.

I have no one.
No one have me.

I want to dominate and control you
want you to dominate and control me.
To put trust in eachother
the ultimate love declaration

I dont mean sexually
that is only a bonus.
I mean our minds
the greatest instrument in our cosmos.
let me linger in yours always
be your univers

you are my world

Not a boring everyay human thing.

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16:27 Nov 06 2019
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Loosing you
I lost my soulmate.
Without you i would have never known what love is.

How far my capability of love extends
something i never had with anyone else.
Something far beyond time and place.
I am left with a burden in my chest
something
that will never ever go away.

I didnt know my love could be so strong.
It tore me apart.

Loosing you
It tore me apart.

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