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On this day I sit here and think

Of all the things that are running through my mind

Everything that is on the brink,

of wanting to sweetly bind.



Bind me to a heart

To something that I really want

To never ever depart

from the sweet release that I want.



Find me. Need me. Love me.

Is that so hard for someone to see?

To be the one that is always there for me.

To never want me to change, just to be what they

want me to be.



But love me for who I am

What I need and want in my life

Have I found that one?

That feeling that you get when you seem alive.



The fluttering of wings within your belly

The pounding of your heart within your chest.

The way your insides turn to jelly

The sweet release you feel with a sweet caress.



Who ever knows what time will tell

Only those that see the future can tell me that spell

And I am not sure I even want to know it.



All my sadness could go away

Gone from my soul

Finally a happiness for everyday



Should I risk it?

Giving up my stubborn thoughts

Believe once more that there is someone that is for me



Please, I ask you

in the stars and in the heavens

tell me my tale of sweet caresses

let me feel my release of utter joy



Or forever I will be entombed with the sadness within me.

The world stopped

The day I wept

My world popped

And then I slept



On a bed of thorns

Torn from the beauty of within

The beginnings of something good torn

but still trapped within



I can't say that not a tear has not fallen

For that would be a lie within itself

I lie I can not live to tell, or am I falling.

Falling into the abyss, of myself.



Life is hard to choose by

The things people think they want

and in the end do not really know

Or maybe not even care to want.



The world has stopped

The beginning of the good things have coruppted(sp?)

My life will go on

But the sadness will never stop errupting

from within.



So with a heavy heart

I leave these words

To someone who may have fallen apart

And can relate to my world .



Though I will say this as much as I can.



I'm SORRY, for what was said.

If I hurt you, I did not mean it.