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It has come to my attention that through all the people I have met on VR there was one other sanguinarian other than myself. I mean there has to be of us here right? I am in need of some questions answered. And just when it seemed I was in the right place to get those answers they were like "what?" And I th to myself "this website is called Vampire Rave for a reason there will be vampires here". Because everyone else seems so surprised to see an actual vampire on a website for vampires. I mean I am not crazy for looking for a little fellowship with other sanguinarians on this site am I?

So yesterday I learned from my biological father (whom walked out of my life at an early age) that my older half brother, whom I have seen on several occasions, is dying in hospice and the doctors can't do anything to save him. The initial shock of this news sent me over the edge and I was crying uncontrollably. But the problem is it was short lived. I feel no distress or sadness about it and it sickens me just typing it down. Anyone else hearing such news would be grieving and yet her I am unaffected. What is wrong with me? Why can't I feel sadness knowing his death is just around the corner? We were close at a time when we seen each other regularly but it makes little difference. I don't even know what to do. Those of you who are reading this are the first to know this I haven't conveyed this information even to my own family out of shame. What on earth am I to do?

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VvvVampireKisses
06:20 Apr 09 2015

When there is no bond.. or it has been severed this is common.. you are not alone with this as far as emotions in this situation ..

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I had a reoccurring dream lately. It began like any other day all of creation was doing what it normally does. That means mankind was still slaughtering its own kind over petty squabbles. that is until a gust of wind blew strongly and when it was over there was stillness in the world. Almost as if the wind some how purged our very minds and thoughts of violence, war, and hate and replaced it with compassion, peace, and love. My thoughts in the beginning were frantic trying to analyze this enigmatic dream. But now I realize that my dream is probably just a glimpse at the unachievable. I believe that mankind is not inherently evil. I believe that we let our guard down and these things worm their way into existence not in the form of demons but in the form of prejudice and resentment amoung other things. Therefore we must be ever vigilant to keep such forces at bay otherwise they might ravage not just mankind but our entire world.