Happy New Year 12:36 Dec 31 2012
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I always say that I am going to write more in here, thou I never seem to, breaking promises is what I seem to do best, have done since I was a child.
So what's going through my mind right now, well Facebook is a crock of shit atm, so many needless posts about how bad peoples years have been and non stop complaining and of course the old "Bring my luck in the new year I deserve it". No you don't, luck is a fantasy it doesn't exist there is only chance.
Luck is something people come up with to justify how bad something is or to explain something they cant. "you only won because you got lucky" no, you had a chance. Luck is chance and chance is worked out via mathematics hence that no one is lucky is just a mathematical calculation.
Anyway going off top a little here, yes so people posting how terrible their lives are piss me off, mostly because they are talking about that there job sucks that they havnt had a good time finding love and all this crap.
In the last 4 years ive lost both my parents, my job and my roof above my head, never once did I ever complain , I have put it behind me , I have let it change me and used it to fuel my next part of my life, though the only thing I will admit that losing all that has done to me, is remove my ability for ambition I seem to no longer care what becomes of me and what becomes of others.
We lose everything in this life in the end, there's no stopping that, we all will die, it is just down to the chance of when it will happen and how. So why care about mundane things, I don't want to be a big shot and get loads of money just for it go away when I am dead, enough to live is fine with me.
We lose everything when were dead, that one line can put so many things into perspective, all the feelings you have on how bad your life is and how horrible things are, just think when your dead who cares, those stupid little things you kept on and on in your mind mean nothing when your dead.
Stop caring about useless information and shit that you don't and cant take with you stop giving a fuck about what others think, they are scared in the own way for when they die who will remember them who will care about them.
Your DEAD who GIVES A FUCK!.
The one thing, the only one thing I want is a true love scenario, to find that someone that is perfect in every way, that makes you completely whole and that everything in the world revolves around her. Aslong as she takes a breath so will you. Your only goal in life is to make her happy because she is god to you, your saviour. Everything that's right in the world in one person. Every time something evil and bad torments your soul she is there to take it away and replace it with love.
Thats what i want. More than anything in this world.
Happy New Year Everyone
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DestroyingAngel
03:40 Feb 02 2013
I agree, soooo many souls on facebook seem to rant on and on about how bad their lives are. When things are good for them...they seem to have watered down comments that you cant really get a clue from. It's as if they ONLY want to put the good out. It's like they're all afraid to expose the bad. Good comes with bad. Bad comes with good...but we dont always see it.
I'm truly sorry that you feel this way and you WILL meet a special lady who will be like GOD to you or as you put it...your saviour. Do not forget who YOU are and what makes YOU happy. As my own BF has told me over and over again...that you HAVE to love yourself first before you can love another. Something I still try to wrap my mind around but have been getting the message loud and clear. It really makes sense when you think about it.
I hope all works out for you and that people online will stop pissing you off with their tales of woe lol. It won't always be like that. Patience and be steady. You'll see, Jon. You'll see. *hugs*