Rant20:08 Jul 16 2012
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Is it the most blissful moment, being born?
That true innocence, oblivious
Without a mental border to be known.
What an amazing feeling it must be.
I've forgotten, as most of you forget as well.
We forget those times of curiosity, and heroism;
those times of alertness and mental acuity,
that most potent of optimisms, in which no problems exist.
How it feels like a gaping hole when you realize that sadist truth, that morbid reality which unquestioningly the world obeys.
That fountain of global lies, bursting forth from the saliva glands of every bullshit salesman, promising the universe when in fact they are hogging it for themselves.
How does it feel to be blackmailed to live? To have no freedom except at the extension of a piece of paper, to live by it, to die by it; to never be able to be free of it.
How does it feel, to be trapped in that sort of blackmail?
That ultimate blackmail that destroys the heart's latent dreams.
How do you explain to a cancer patient that they will die unless they pay for it? Instead of wondering why they can't just live, that horrible thought takes over, when your mind suddenly jumps to your wallet, and you realize you are willing to die rather then place your family in financial ruin.
You've made your peace with yourself and realized once and for all that you despise living.
However is it life? Is this how we were meant to live? Or is it a trap perceived by a small few?
Why can't the human mind transcend the cloaked reality and into the static truth? That money is an illusion, wealth is an illusion and it's very premise is a backwards jump in evolution.
It is all a mental trick of gymnastics, a psychological ploy that anyone would find value in an object simply because it's shiny.
It is an inferior thought that gravely insults the complexities of the world and plays right into the truths about humanity's own inferiorities.
I have to deal with those inferiorities first hand because I need surgery. If I don't get it, I don't know what will happen.
In a perfect world, I'd have gotten it already.
However this world imperfect, held captive by the dead remnants of fallen trees. Held captive by a greedy few who believe they are genetically superior they have a large collection of dead and inanimate things.
Things which do not follow them into the afterlife, and will simply rot on earth until a calamity destroys them.
How delusional does one have to be?
I and so many suffer when we do not need to because we've somehow allowed the mentally ill to rule us.
...And it is a mental illness, this greed.
It's a delusion.
A delusion that somehow little pieces of green paper, and numbers on a computer screen will get you anything you want and that you are better then anyone else because of it.
This mental illness is enforced at the point of a gun, baton and in some cases bombs.
A mental illness which imprisons us all. Because if you think about it we are all prisoners. Fear is a prison.
Fear keeps you from acting as you would want to act, either because you fear violence or rejection. Fear, delusion and blackmail, that's the world we live in.
Why can't we just live for ourselves and our family?
If I die, I'll just be a number on some stat sheet. No one will remember I had ever lived. My poetry, my words will disappear.
My value as a living creature was never appreciated at all.
...And I feel sorry for all the children born today, because most of them will be cast aside tomorrow
...also forgotten.
COMMENTS
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ladybriarrose
22:02 Aug 25 2012
depressing but true, depressingly true, you expressed it well
DarkMuse
21:06 Sep 24 2012
This is the rawful truth...even people that have
insurance we still suffer because it doesn't pay
for important tests we may need, that has to come out of our pockets. We are prisoners, in our our minds, our own illnesses, and yes, by our own
fears, fears of being forgotten, fear of the unknown...very provoking thoughts you bring forth.
XbluesandX
21:58 Oct 03 2012
Wow!!!! I'm speechless.
That was absolutely beautiful, and true, and written from the heart...with so much emotion. It brought tears to my eyes.