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Okay so Im kind of sick of writing about depressing whiney stuff. I may seem pathetic or like I feel sorry for myself. Which is probably true, but I dont care as I need to let it out somehow.



Here my life today. Woke up very very late after having a great phone convo last night. Then ended up arguing with people and getting a immature prank call, yet again. Maybe im just depressed ot not coping well, but I think a serious change is needed into my life. Im just stuck in a rut and need help from someone who knows what it's like to be stuck. Oh well



Oh and I've been reading an awesome book about evocation!! It distracts me from the worries in my life :)

So suprisingly last night was amazing, got to actually enjoy myself with REAL company. Not just online friends lmao. But really it was nice to cuddle and just relax and feel at ease around somone for once. Now my only problem is falling in like. I hate likeking somone, ya know the lovely dovey like. I always get disapointed. So I hope that maybe this time somthing wont go wrong. Though I already have my secrets but im going to tell tommrow night.



Also my best friend, well more like sister is going literally and slowly insane. I cant een seem to help her anymore, it sucks that she has to be 3 hours away. God this world can be cruel!

So today started out wonderful, which meant I new it would end in disater. I got the parts for my laptop first thing in the AM and then of course the one im borrowing had to get a virus. WTF is gong on here why must every good thing have a bad to cancel it right out. Maybe im over exagerating or just feeling sorry for myself, but I think that we are all entitaled to those days. Tommow should be good but I guess we'll see. I sorta accidentally got myself in this little love circle, and it sucks!! Esp. scince the two involved are friends and have no idea. The situation is absoultly ridiculous and amusing at the same time. Which one to pick? I wonder why life can't just be normal anymore, though I suspect that many of us say the same thing. I just want to be happy for 1 whole day. People wonder why my reality blurs in with my fanstasy, anymore I don't see a distintive difference.