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I guess there is a reason I always stay to myself and stay recluse. Its to avoid heart aches cause they are the worse than anything when your truly in love with someone and they say they love you but yet they hardly talk to you. They say I love you and yet hardly say anything else like that is the only thing that matters every few days. A relationship takes more than just saying one phrase every 3 days to you. I dont think I want love in my life anymore. I always bore people it seems and I dont know what else to do to make it work. they say I dont. I feel I do cause actions speaks louder than words all the time. Dont know what to do with this one. Its the lonliest relationship I ever been in. /sighs I am never too busy for it but he seems to be. Friends comes first and I come last. Am I being played? Hmmm I wonder!

Havent wrote in this journal in a few days so figured I would add something to let anyone that reads this that I am still alive. LOL! It feels great to be back on the rave again. I got inducted to a wonderful coven. I freaked out at first as I am a very reclusive person and with all that is going on in my life I didnt feel I would be a great addition and I hate to let people down thats trying to be so kind. Well, today I think I made a break through finally! I hope my Lord is pleased with my article in the forum I tried to do research on. I truly am loving this coven.....its like a real family from what I can see. Hail Noctem Aternes! May we live on and become great! Blessed Be!

May I give you my heart? May I dream of you ever night in my dreams? I am so scared yet I feel so alive when talking with you. We have so much in common...everything in common it feels like.....am I only dreaming? Or are you real and within my grasp? At this moment, I so wished I was with you! Its driving me wild tonight!

Once again I am back on vampire rave. I did what I sat out to do and took great care of my mother til she passed away feb 15. I come back to VR finally last night and got on my profile and WOW has alot of things changed up. Even seen some old friends on here...most were friendly...one or two not so friendly anymore...oh well life goes on right? .....I am having a really hard time trying to remember how I use to put a background on my profile and how to use that HTML I use to know well. LOL! That one saying is true! If you dont use it you will lose it! ok enough of this for now. Blessed Be!

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Sinora
18:52 May 08 2008

Html...*shudders*...why will no-one believe me when I say it's a tool of the devil ?

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Angelus
01:03 May 12 2008

..so sad, to read of your loss.

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