Okay, someone hand me a swizzle-stick, I need this one mixing up, as I just can’t get my head round it. Britain and America are in Dire Straights financially and so we decide to pay millions in Afghanistan, to buy off the Taliban??
Erm, stop.. pause.. rewind.
We’re broke. So are our allies in this mess, yet we’re offering millions to the Taliban?
One has to wonder whether we’re doing this now as we know they are winning and we don’t want a) defeat b) another costly Vietnam??
Either way, we can’t afford a war: and the way we’re going, we can’t afford peace, well not at those prices anyway…
Now, I’m no paragon of virtue: but, I do try to listen and, I do try to show compassion to those I know and, have on my ‘friends list.’ Now awhile back, I spoke of my disgust at the lack of understanding shown to me by VeilofSanity, [formerly Duneshifter] in regards to my Mother’s death; now I’m equally disgusted by the teen waster Deidrel, who whines about someone who shows a complete lack of compassion, towards someone who needs a hug, in part due to her pre-teen, selfish behaviour. As far as I’m concerned, I never want to hear from, or see anything of either of them. There are too many selfish, little-minded people in this world as it is. People like them, concerned with themselves as they are, in lieu of how they affect others just don’t have a place on this good Earth, in my not-so-humble opinion. “Whew, rant over!”
I still can’t get over the way some people seem to be blanking me ~ just ‘coz they have a problem handling my grief. It’s a bit like their problem then becomes mine, as I end up feeling even more isolated than I already feel.
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Everyone has problems, everyone has grief.
It is shit when you are grieving so deeply like this, and it seems no one is there. And I am sorry you feel so isolated.
I feel like this much of the time myself.
A lot of the time it is about staying afloat, keeping your head above the water. I think people fear being dragged under sometimes.
Maybe they are worried about offending you, making your grief worse. Maybe someone worries about breaking down, in response to your own grief. And thinking it is the last thing you need.
Maybe you just have a bad habit of catching me when I am in a rush out the door, maybe I am too self involved and feel too scared to add your grief to my own.
There are so many reasons...possibilities.
I am thinking of you, but I am just a fucked up individual like everyone else, trying to get through.
Wow, well I don't know you to blank you...
Interesting what Alexandra said.
Grief dislikes me, we don't see eye to eye, so I avoid it as best as I can. I have my upbringing to thank for that. Although now I am older I do find it harder to avoid as well as I did in my youth!
I lost my mom in 2007. I've lost most of my family. Grief lives with me, too. Time makes it softer, but I will always carry my loved ones with me. I hope your memories will, in time, be more comfort than pain.
And, though I’d like to learn how to ‘let go’, I do find it real hard to do. While I was at the Azda, I’d seen Debbie Shrewsbusy Gee, who I met a month or so ago, who chatted with me for about twenty minutes or so; and who I’d thought I’d got on with, until the phone number I’d been given had turned out to be either engaged, or an answering machine. And, I have to ask, why did she offer it to me?? But, leaving that aside, I’d said ‘Hello’ and she moved passed me down an aisle, saying, “Hello Neil. I’ll just be a minute” and then, after a little more than a minute, I’d decided to continue with my purchase of the chicken, knowing full well that she wouldn’t be back. And that brings me to another thought: as I was typing out Friday’s entry for VR, I found myself musing on Duneshifter again, who like Debbie, the Goth Emo Babe, who drinks at The Tap was just not who I thought she was, at all. Why, oh why, can’t people be real nowadays?? Is it just too much to expect??
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I dont think thats asking to much. But giving this day and age, its all about me thing. I rather have someone be real and truthful. dont make promises to me that you cant keep. Thats my simple motto. and while their attitudes do hurt. as I said Its all about me generation. I make no apolgies for that opinion. I do however give people a chance.
Perhaps people are afraid to be real!
In answer to a smart-arsed remark I made, to a kismet of hers, Duneshifter explained why she was rude to me, by saying I'm alway's complaining. er.. fuck.. it's my Mother's funeral on Friday.
... it hurt, 'coz I do try not to be, like my Mum, who I respected so.
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you owe no one an explanation. to duneshifter, or anyone else for that matter. glares.
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Theban
18:55 Feb 03 2010
It does take the piss a little....well alot!