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..no cannabis, no tobacco and the only job I've found to apply for has 8/10 hours on offer and someone I quite like on here just disappeared shortly after I came online.



'Everythingthing is tickety boo!'

watched the Doctor Who I missed the start of yesterday.

part 2 of Daleks in Manhatten.

that show and its siter show Torchwood just won the majority of the welsh Bafta's!

it's sunny and I have a painted ceiling and am now toying with some of the features of premier membershyip.

It's fun seeing who's 'friends' lists I'm on ..and who I know didn't ask.

It's now 11:32 and I'm bloody tired ..and blood was shed on the church steps.

stupid, greedy chinaman!

he had to take someones tea and sarnies..

the fella was drunk, not bad, but drunk.

he asked for the tea and sarnies back.. and what did the sill fellow do, he spat at him.

and then, he woondered why he got it.

swear down ..it was nearly my world and I'm so glad it's not.

being premium is weird.

it was bought for me.

(nice Lady)

I can see who's stalking me now if I bother to look.

someone realised this before I did and my list of stalkers went down from ten to nine, before I'd thought to check.

My story called 'are you gay?'



headlessdoll kept calling me it.

she's being amusing in the modern vernacular: but it amused me, so I used it as a story title

I'm shitfaced Now

on a sunny day

typing away

just before

taking a bath!

Last night I realised last night just why I still do voluntary work. I'd still be feeling down, yet arrived there, late, then 'got stuck in' as I do there. Now, I haven't 'needed,' for ages.

Physically, or materially, as my folks have helped a lot.. but last night I helped those who have little, in part down to themselves, I realised I'm still needed there. And, that had felt good.. just to feel needed.. and listen a little who know I understood, at little.. although ofttimes, I can do little more than I do. After all, I remind myself, we're a soup kitchen, not Social Servics.

But, two people had surprised me last night: there's been one, a 'happy' drunk, who'd I thought would be hassle and it was he who had seen to the need of a little old lady, who'd turned up for a meal.

Then, at the end of the night, he'd tidied up the front of the church.

Well, he hadn't been the only one, who had surprised me as I say ~ another had been the drunk who turned up and accused me of being a christian (in a nice way) as as did something he appreciated.

And boy-am I lucky to do what I do, as the nxt day I can look back and realise where I'm at, as I have.



And having felt low most of the week, I'm Now feeling better after voluntary work and gardening.

do excuse my ranting yesterday.

sometimes computers really annoy me!

sometimes stress gets to me..

and just occasionally a question I've been asked will prompt a response from myself that will surprise even me!

both fiancee.

both Pisces.

both lasted four years:

both had been sexually abused by family members.

one father, the other uncle and grandfather

both cheated on me

the only other, nays says, "you're sa part of my life I'd rather forget."

she had been a true love, before the other two.

i was so pleased to get on VR tonight

i know I've got to go and I cant answer any messages, but I've been busy with USB thingies.. and much of it is over my head..

My 'new' little laptop, the Acer travel-mate took a fall on the station platform, on the way home after a necessary downgrade from XP to 2000 by my friend.

It has now lost its sound. I think I know what the fault is: but, my friend can't see to it till next Sunday. Highly frustrating.

this is supposed to be our cherry blossom time.

But, the weather is so good you'd imagine it were Summer.

Saying that, it is pleasant, not too hot, y'know?



The parents are eating lunch as I type after working in the

back gardening..

I saw my friend Janet and her partner today.

We went to the beach at West Kirby.



Photo's have been put up!

stories up.

journals up.

poems up.

and I've seen two 'friends' come and go..



without saying as much as "Hello."

I am a little miffed.

it seems a few have read my newer stuff.

but no-one seems to read the older stuff~

and that means they're missing some of my best stuff.. ah well, at least one young lady is willing to check a few of those out.

hope she'll like what she sees!!

I'm doing okay.

although a bit broke.

it takes 20 mins on the bus to the dole to sign on.

it seems even with a hint of a limp, I can walk it in 40 mins.

as it was a sunny pleasant morning, I most certainly enjoyed the walk though.

There is a perception on VR, that if a woman write 'sexy stores, then they are considered 'fair game' to be 'hit on' by guys here, for cyber-sex. I wonder why?

Particularly when that profile gives a warning about such things..

"Can men read?"



And, while I'm in full rant; what 'master' would want to coerce a self-acknowledged submissive into an online relationship?

Such a relationship should be consensual?

Or have I missed the point with such things?



And that was purely rhetorical!!!

It’s sunny and as I write. My Father’s going nutso with the new car, as he’s having problems tuning the radio into Radio Merseyside. He’s even asked my advice, which left me feeling quite bemused, as I’m just not used to it. But, I’d quite liked it. I’ve just taken a break from business letters to clean the bathroom, prior to going out to hand deliver an application form to The Lauries in Birkenhead, for a post of Outreach Worker. But, before I go out I’m going to touch up the grey at my temples, just to perk myself up mentally.

I might be getting old and showing it Now, what with a loss of teeth, backache and greying hair. And yes, I’ll concede it’s down to vanity.

But, it’s one of the few things I can do something about.

I mean, when I was working, I wasn’t sensible enough to save enough money to achieve my desire, an implant for the left side of the mouth, where I’ll soon be lacking as many teeth as I am on the right.

And give a guess as to how much that implant would have been? £1,000 just.

Now I’m not good at saving anyway, which is why I’ve been so-lucky over the years, with my Father looking after my finances for me.

So, what chance did I have in saving that amount of money?

As it is, I can still hear him going on about McCawber and money spent.

Ah well… And yeah, you know I’ve been raving on about a British vampire film, called, ‘Razor Blade Smile’? Well, as it transpires, the director/producer Jake West has got a new film out, ‘Evil Aliens.’

It’s got excellent special effects and typically indie-film semi amateur actors, who work in the respective roles well. Furthermore, Norman Lovett, (the first Holly from Red Dwarf) had a cameo role in it. I even liked the brief homage to ‘Razor Blade Smile’ in it, which had me laughing goodstyle.

Oh-boy, if you can, get to see it!

I write I have tingles in the hand and have had a good nights sleep.

I got a new mattress: a Seeley mattress to look forward to sleeping on

'for posture.' Gotta be better than the spring we found coming through the old one! my back loves it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I had my first night out in weeks.

It's going to take my body a week to recover and my pocket, two weeks.

Either was, it was worth it.

Me, I'm content.

And taking into account some of the things I've known, content is a good state to be.

I think.

why would someone contact me through messenger, out of the blue.

when quizzeed as to who they were, they'd said Chago16.

tonight when I logged into messenger, again there were messages waiting:

this time their display pic was gone.

She's called Nicole Schimmer, messenger name danglinjewel.. and after a check on VR.. there is no Chago 16, as I say.

Twenty five years ago on the shore of San Carlos Bay in The Falklands Islands, two soldiers with the Royal Corps of Transport stood on a beach, looking at the transport ships they would be loading up, to return home on: HMS Geraint and HMS Galahad.

A coin was flipped and one went on the Galahad the other the Geraint.

The Galahad was struck by missiles and burnt like it was made of magnesium.

Fifty-two men died that day, including one of those two soldiers from the beach, while the other returned home, to England. He was my brother.

ah, it's all good.

the hand hurts less, it's sunny and I'm off shortly to pick up a new laptop.