The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

back to over thinking again i'm just so sick of it all i don't know how to change something i've been for so very long i'm weak never really been strong am tried from all my sleepless nights of haunting thoughts that just won;t go away i keep pushing it to the side i keep telling myself i'm alright but behind the spray paint i put on i'm secretly broken down inside i'm hurt from the past and the hurt from the words i can't seem to get up the courge to actually speak whats on my mind i'm sorry i keep seeming to disapoint you am sorry i'm not perfect but i never really been at all you say mean things from anger but you need to remember i'm not you i take things diffrently i keep saying i'm sorry becuz that's the only thing i could say after 18 years of pain i love you cause your my dad but i hate the way you act sometimes you said what am i here for to answer you that i still don't know please if you want just take me out of my pain yes i got everything i wanted but i'm to far away to be changed i can make some ajustments but i can't do a full 360 i just don;t know what to say anyway i guess just deal with it for now my psycho inside