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People keep asking me what a collar means to me and I find a hard time trying to answer. So I thought about it and found a solution. I will answer by telling how much it hurts to not have a collar.



I don't belong to anyone. I am not loved, not truly. Everyone says they care yet they are blind. I become more angry and resentful everyday because I have no one in my life that cares or loves me enough to call me their's. I go through my everyday routine sad and lonely. I get aggrevated by the littlest things because of it. I'm happy to go to work because when I'm there, I know I'm appreciated by people who don't even know me. I'm tired of feeling unloved.



But here's the catch-22. I don't want a collar from just anyone. I don't want a collar from someone who looks down on me. I don't want a collar from someone who is seeking one of their own. I don't want a collar from someone who already has someone else. I don't want a collar from someone who isn't going to keep and love me forever.



I want a collar from someone who will cherish me, take care of me, love me, hold me. I want a collar from someone who will appreciate me and want me with them for a very long time. I want a collar from someone who has seen me at my worst and still wants to have me. I want a collar from someone who wants all or me. My personality, my ups and downs, my eyes, my hair (no matter the color), my smile, my humor, my weight, all of me.



A collar is intimate and personal, not something done casually. It's love, bound and locked in place. It's not just a mark of ownership, it's a symbol of love, respect, and commitment. It's a way to show the world that the person wearing that collar is loved, cared for, and respected, and that the person who gave it appreciates and is committed to the one who is wearing it. A collar is more than a wedding ring. A collar that is locked, either with metal or with love, can't be removed for a one night stand like a wedding ring can.



I don't want to be worthy of just any collar. I want to be worthy of a collar that's worthy of me. I want a collar that reflects me and the one who gave it. I don't want to a collar just because I've earned it. I want a collar that's more than a grade or a raise. I want a collar that says I'm more because I am. I want a collar that says I am cherished, loved, appreciated, taken care of, and held. I want a collar that says I am everything to the person who gave it to me.