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As one has not yet added into my journal recently, I though I should.

Finding it differcult to leave him all together but wondering if it is the right decition.



Myself and my first human love split up about two weeks ago. I felt a dark sadow over look my soul, like something was missing. I than looked at my Angel Cards, to me they looked like they had a dimmed glow behind them.

I took them off my shelf and did my 'Past, Present and Future' spread. My present came out as 'Forgiveness' and my future came out as 'trust'.

I than new that my angels were trying to tell me not to break up with this human being as I am inlove with him. But there was apart of me saying; "Why would I want to break up with him, there must be a reason" But I ahve told him the truth, that I still love him but am not sure on what I want to do regarding our relationship.



On up sides the covern has been distroyed and everything is Okay again. But, yet again there is a down side. Arnald Crow is yet to show himself as he is now. I am dreading the day that he reterns.

I am sure the others from around the world will not be impressed.



I am a broken person but still standing strong.

The last week has been depressing and emotionsal!



I found out that one of my friends was murdered the other day. I hope that justice is surved in a way that can't be argued with. The country needs to toughen up. My personal beleifs are that if you commit a horrible crime like murder. Than you should be killed. A life for a life!



Also my boyfriend of nearly three years, seems to care more about others than me.

Is it my secret against the world that is driving him away? Or is it because we have lost lust within our relationship?

I would like to know what to do...

Maybe I should just talk to him about it for the fith time.



I have also left my group of 'friends'. It's been a weight off my sholders. I am afraid to say it but I am glad that I am free of that abombination. It was nothing but secrets and laws. Even serious punishments...

I am glad that I am now free to be myself and not what someone else tells me to be!



There is one good thing in my life, my friend Raven. Who I can always count on to be there to cry on. Any time of night, I will give him a call and he is there to pick up the phone.



Lets hope that everything works out in the end, maybe within the next week to come.



Angel Athena Dragonfly.