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Have you ever felt that you don't belong here like death is a better rout for you? It seems to feel like everyone doesn't like you. You're not the only one... Ever since my last boyfriend, whom I'm connected to physically and will be for the rest of my life, left me for someone else, while we were still together in fact... I literally have nobody but the love of my life to talk to and even then I feel like a bother to her so I keep to myself in fear that I will annoy her to the point where she will leave me alone... So many times I have thought that I should just end it and make my suffering end... But one thought of her and I don't want to anymore... Lately I've seen her smile, laugh, kiss, and even cuddle with her boyfriend... While she does these things in front of me; my only thoughts are "You aren't the one who makes her smile... She would be happier if you just disappeared", yet I know these aren't true but I just can't get them out of my mind...