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Hate...
22:47 Apr 25 2007
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Sometimes I go into the darkness and I fear... I fear not of what darkness might hide but of what the hidden might look like... and my fear creates shapes... but, where this fear comes from? I think is from hate... hate and rage that grows inside me... step by step, without any doubt or delay... and I know it because when I feel or think of an encounter with one of the hidden, maybe I fear what it might happen... but I know that my rage will explode in the afterworld... and I think of the phrase :" Leave me the fuck alone, daemon!"... and it will...

But the hate is real... and growing... is the hate that, like a paradox, derives from fear... fear that a stupid fucker might end my life here before its time just because he feels like that or because he's too drunk or too high... and I won't be able to fulfill my mission...

I have people to see, friends to meet and to thank to... and also I have people on the blacklist... people who if comie even close to the loved ones might release my hate in a blast that I might regret later...

I fear my hate... my rage... it consumes me, it makes me not function properly... it blocks my mind...

They say that there are ways of fighting this hate... sports, meditation, arts... those are just ways of opressing the hate, of compressing it deep inside my soul... that is why I hunt for souls... that is why I exist, after all... to accumulate this hate, to take it from others and protect them from harming themselves... to release it upon those who deserve... but sometimes even that is too much... and I start making mistakes... I start to malfunction... I start hating myself... and I feel trapped, because my hate might hurt the loved ones... and then I fear again... I fear for them... because those who care about you are always those who have no guard and are so easy to hurt... and by doing that, more rage and hate is accumulated...

I feel trapped... but, I still can see or hear... so, watch out! Try to hurt the ones I love and not that I will torture your soul for eternity, but I might get you in this life too!

Hate is growing... and I don't know how much I can keep it bottled up inside!

HELP!!!

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