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~Repeat to Begin~



She has a longing

To be at ease

And to fall away

Just leave in peace and dark

For as long as it takes

For the world to forget

And to forget the world

To start again

But when forgotten she is most alone

But only to gain strength

And build her walls

To hold that strength

Learning again the feelings

Of happiness, of pain, and of solitude

The knowing of these

Will weaken and chip away at her walls

And the strength will slowly drain

Until she’s completely helpless and pathetic

Wallowing in self loathing and fear

Wishing to forget once more

But ever knowing the endless cycle

She knows only one way out at long last

She could end the repeating forever…

Only a voice, just as lonely

And just as pained

Calls out and pulls her back

And she longs

To keep her wit, long enough

To help this voice forget

And when the task is finished,

She’ll move along

And cease the pointless circle

And cause a beginning in another.

~Break for 8~



Take one to dull

Bring the pain down from full

Put it in your hand and throw it back

But pain’s strength is like a bull



Take three and the numb still lacks

Its gone for a moment, and again attacks

Gripping the place in agony and fear

You retake the steps, to give the tension slack



Take five and feel it near

The shutting down and the drear

Fluttering heart and shaking

Hand too weak and unable to steer



Take eight and feel the unmaking

Pulling your eyes closed, with dreams for the taking

Swerve and sway, movements faking

It’s the real motion of your soul breaking

look at this.

Stare in curiousity

ask to look away

but hold your eyes

bewildered,

and stunned.

smiles cracking.



Blidness resored

darkness engulfing again

closed useless eyes

water and fire at the same moment

melt away voices and thought

sitting, lolling in unknown

staring inward, gone,

and forever lost