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I'm Smoking this thing called GOD... its some very fucking awsome home grown weed. and i'm smoking it keep me from going insane right now. i have not feed from many others in over a year and have decided to live by all rules and laws to us, grown far apart from the one that clamis to be my sire. i love her and many times haqve wanted to drive from portland in the middle the week to mid east coast and kill others but still. i have not met yet for almost a 1 yr of being thy sire has met yet.... anyways, my life is in the shit, oregon has no many jobs and falling from one place to the next, from clubs to military jobs to labor temp jobs. nothing and most places want a fucking degree in something to almost guaruntee you a job with them. what kind of a.....i thoght being in the military already did that.,,,,no....grrrrrr so. (sigh) lost my place of living, down to the car and friends that i can call friend, just crashing in their driveways. least its in my own space, and away from others, sometimes:)......Surving by selling off welll right now the tv.. (btw it was fucking so worth the wait- even for the 4 months of having it)... and working bullshit jobs. oh yeah and on the door way out to having to more teeth pulled on thursday... hmmm yeah oct 14 09 yay fun for me thats 5 teeth in 2 years. i love it. least my fangs roots are strong and deep. one day will ge tto feed aqgain. the sane of oh yeah btw i totalled triede to kill my self when......last weekno maybe a week and half ago just during D. just before i went and seen my trunk monkey off before he triesw(dont think hes going) to get shipped of to iraq in nov,,, god i 'm gonna miss him my lil buddy if he goes to iraq(promised toys, and gooods, lol). i would giove more details but this time i wasn't succerssful, see i'm still here

yay umglad this is dated.

hmmmmm change musiclol grrrr

i'm smoking this great weed called GOD and it does the trick even through all the major shit i've smoked over the past 2- maybe 3 years now

wow, not fucking bad...... good sir may i have another, thank you good sir, lol

Oh yeah if you get in my way, don't be struck by consecienses, cant spell.

struck by my actions, cause i've come to the point where i just don't give a fuck bout whole lot, i'm struggling just to survive right now,,,,, alll those that wanted to kill me come do it now would be your chances, promise wont tell..... but remember who i am and i will not take shit from no man or woman.

did i mention i i just got tired of fighting for what i believe in and tired of seeing it shut down, or thrown back into my face.

so i must survive right now more than everyone else i have been trying to care for. you all fucking live in a house or someplace that welcomes you, i will not get into the 10k that went most to me/my parents accounts never 2 b seen again from future help. anyways............

I just wanted to let my self be heard because i'm not sure if my side of the storie will ever get heard.

~Blade ~Lars ~2xBladex2 ~3xBladex3 ~j3573r_x7r3m3