Look for the face without a soul, You'll find the shell she left for me.00:22 May 05 2010
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I don't know what's worse, having a father that's been dead for seven years. Or a shell of a mother, who looks like everything you knew and loved, but is nothing of what was. I miss them both..
I wrote this song for her last night..
Maybe she'll see how she's breaking me, and bring herself back to life..
Dear mother, we have few words left to say.. ~
You say it makes no sense why we fight
How I can be so mean, you never would of believed back then.
But when love gets so great and then its pushed away, oh yeah.
you lose your faith.
Why can't you be happy for me, even if it's fake..
Why can't you see, your words bring me down..
This child I'm supposed to be, will never please, will never please..
How am I supposed to make you happy..
When everything I do never means a thing..
I could bend a bridge and you'd say i didn't part the river beneath..
Mhmm Yeahhh.. cos bridges, aren't good enough when it's me..
Words they've been spoken so much, it's so old.
Trying not to yell get's so tiring, I'm turning cold.
I fear I'm loosing faith, in all that made me..
Oh la da da dahh oh la dah da dahh.
Carry me just carry me..
Oh la dah dah dahh. Carry me just carry me..
Just bring me back.. Ooo yeah.
Lah da dah da don't let go of everything.
Say i'm good enough yeah i'm good enough as me..
Ohhh mother, oh mother, can you hear me..
Why can't you be happy, for me, even if it's fake..
Why can't you see, you words bring me down.
This child I'm supposed to be. Will never please, no never please. No I'll never please.
Your own brokenness shines..
When you tear apart, this life of mine.
Criticize, oh criticize, just let me be..
You got my pride, you had my heart, what do you want for me..
Oh my dearest, dearest mommy all I wanted was to please..
So I'll fallow my broken dreams, that you say in less amount of words then it should take.. Don't mean a thing.
So I'll try to fly on these broken wings, cos you've picked my feathers to pieces..
Guess they weren't placed so perfectly..
Mother,, oh mother, can you hear me..
Why can't you be happy for me, even if its fake..
Why can't you see you words bring me down,
why can't you support just one decision I make..
Say I'm good enough, yeah I'm good enough as me..
My son he shines so bright, in my eyes..
In your eyes, I'm the smoke after the flame..
In your words, I'm burnt.. It's all the same..
oh dearest mommy all i wanted was to please,
but I'll fly on these broken wings, yes I'll fly on these broken wings.
cos these broken wings made me,
when after so long you betrayed me. These broken wings will carry me away..
Oh la da da dahh oh la dah da dahh.
Carry me just carry me..
Oh la dah dah dahh. Carry me just carry me..
Lah da dah da don't let go of everything.
Say i'm good enough yeah i'm good enough as me..
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CelestiaLaura202
01:46 May 05 2010
your song broke my heart. My father died when I was three. My mother would bearly speak to me. I never knew her. I know what you are going though.
evilsmiles
15:44 May 05 2010
I read your song its awesome ...
I can't help from a moms aspect to wonder,if you have actually shared your thoughts with her,or expected her to all ready know them???
MAYbe share this beautiful song with her....:)
I lost both my parents and oldest sister in deaths. My dad died of carbon monixide poisioning... i swear my darling freind,it will ease up for you all