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the dark calls to me again, shadows whispering bitter sweet lies of truth. my heart aches wondering when the ground beneath me will finally give way and toss me back into the endless darkness that i tried so hard to claw my way out of for years. it calls to me again and i only want to feel the embrace of it once more let it take my pain and sorrow away from me so i may once again feel nothing. i dont want pain or sorrow, happiness or joy. i want the numbness to come back, i want to be lost once more so the pain of living will once again be locked away where i will no longer have to suffer or hate. i want to cry my crimson tears once more so the world will know that i no longer want to be a part of its festering evil. come my dark angels lets all go back to the shadows so we may be alone and loved by our own kin and not be hated or tempted my the light or darkness again.

i wish only that we may be part of a batter world, the shadows bring us peace and safety. the dark can no longer reach us for we are too close to the light and the light fears to come closer for we are also children of the dark. listen to me my dark angels and do not let them break your spirits, we are the more loved in the end. you may not see it now but we are the only peace keepers between light and dark. i have no more fears for what is there left to fear when all else fears you. death is the only freedom we shall ever see but even then it dose not stop. children of the shadows spread your black wings and stay true to what you are.

we may be feared by all but they can not understand the pain or fear we have. i want the numbness of the darkness and the warmth of the light. i am no longer happy, but i am no longer sad. my emotions are blank not knowing what to feel or do i would have to say is my greatest fear of all. i at the moment am a shell. hollow inside, not even the worms dare try to rot me away. what am i to the world? am i an angel or a demon? am i good or bad? even if you answer me who draws the lines of good and bad? light and dark? i am the buffer between the two so am i the line that defines me and the rest of the world? even so the world will not listen to its own rules and common since.

hear me again dark angels do not tuck away your wings for the world do not let them clip your wings or take your freedom. you are the most beautiful angels, your hardships and suffering make you the perfect beings in the known. do not let them chain you or break you. your will is your best weapon.

till next time,

Niomi Shadows