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It was raining that night in London.....i shall never forget. I was sired in 1686. I was giving the chance to wonder this earth till its own destruction......forever here......immortal.....a daughter of shadows and darkness.
"Why should i fear the Shadows when I am the Darkness its self?


Dark......goth....bleeding and a witch ill let u figure out the rest. i also love to draw..mostly with pastels..more or less pencil..but yea
I have been thro hell in my world......infact the way my life is going..hell is above thee. Pain echos in my mind.....bleeding out my endless time. I dont kno why i am the way i am but it seems to be the way thingz are......But no matter...i dont matter...forget me its that simple...

I am 15 and live in my own world so it seems...I have always felt alone...there for i am alone. I have 2 horses. But that doesnt matter. I like to draw and write what i feel....I have been told by a counsler i have a depression disorder....Dysthymia... But i dont care.... i am much to fond of the moon and stars to fear the nite..i like to walk umong the shadows....why fear the shadows when i am the darkness its self?

My mom worries so much about me becuz i am a cutter..but all i need is out...i need out of the day..away from the "home" away from it all but i have no where to run. and every step i take seems to be a step back wards from who and where i need to be..every breath hurts more than the first...i am cursed to live a death of lonelyness....empty ness......nothing ness.....for i a m nothing....nothing at all....
I wish I was the one you would hold. I wish I was the one you say you love… I wish I were yours but that will never happen for I am not of your world and you don’t see me I am not here… I am non existent. No one can see or hear me. I am the one lost in the shadows…but I am the Darkness its self. Bleeding out my pain alone. You don’t know who I am but I know you…. If only I were loved by one….then I may exist in this world among these lands…… other than being the Girl forgotten… if only…if only……if only………..

You told me you loved me…what happened? Was it me or was it you I will never kno. Why did you leave me like this??? Why must I suffer from something I didn’t cause? Or did i? Why must you say good bye at the times I need you the most… you never really cared…you never really listened. I never really mattered to you…I kno that now. Why did you have to pretend like you cared, it only hurts me more to kno. I tried so hard to keep you here…but you still seem like you have to go……why? What did I do? You once told me you would never forget me...but look at what you have done. Why are you doing this? I don’t seem to understand…what have I said to cause this pain? Why?? You once told me you loved me…What happened?

Shadows creep across the walls, but cold tears are all I can feel on my pale skin. Blood pours slowly covering the frozen floor of my concrete room. What have I done? It is to late to turn back… if only I could erase time…turn back and make things right. Why did it have to end this way? No one will know. No one can see…scars are all that is left of me. Cold tears….Pail skin…..I now can see that this…this is truly…My end.