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Walk away from the sun;
09:42 Jun 29 2008
Times Read: 601
Not good at all, haha, no clue even to why I wrote it;
Walk away from the sun,
and kill everyone.
Leave behind your gun.
Don't miss anyone.
Leave them behind, their needed no more.
Your no longer alive.
If you killed more than four.
So walk away from the sun,
you've killed everyone.
Walk into the darkness,
and show your killer fate.
Walk away from the sun,
and tell everyone.
Show your last chance.
Tie it around your neck.
and leave the bullet in your chest.
You've walked away from the sun,
and now your drowning in your own blood.
In your own blood,
you've walked away from the sun..
2 + 2 = 5
04:07 Jun 21 2008
Times Read: 625
A stabbing sensation ripping through your organs.
Choking up the blood, that flows through your veins.
Feeling the hot ooze flow through your wound.
The bloody sword, thrown across the room.
Leaving me to succumb,
My dieing hatred, is fading, leaving to welcome me, when I enter, the gates of Hell.
Why did you stab me?
Not only once but 6 times.
You stab me every night, before the clock strikes 12, and leave me to live, this putrid life.
Pictures saved, and the blood is starting to boil.
Arisen the dead, that wasn't ever born.
Feeling the need to avenge the death, you once forthorned.
Leaving me to this fate, of the demised, and the damned.
When I was already ment, to kill Heaven, and destroy the king of the thrown.
Kill me, free my soul.
Stab me, feel my hatred for this world explode.
Do nothing, and I shall live, to recieve another threat, and another blow.
Connecting your knuckles with my nose.
Slicing my wrists, with the scissors, from the store.
Opening my chest, and ripping out my heart.
Taking a sword, and slicing it through, reaching out to my soul.
To burn before it has escaped, to Hell's place.
Your my Father, your my Blade.
Your my Mother, your my Abyss.
Combine the blade to my heart, and awaken the black abyss, stitched my eyes closed, to never awaken.
Dieing slowly, with nothing but purity.
To re-enter Hell, when I have been abondoned, Satan my father, and my mother has died.
My brother forever soaring to heaven.
With Hatred's demise.
The Thing that should have been.
01:08 Jun 18 2008
Times Read: 636
Mom and dad, I am the daughter that everyone knew.
I went to school, and steadied my grades.
I payed my respects, to the ones still walking upon their graves.
But somewhere, something went wrong.
Depression kicked in, and my life, started cascading downward.
Life upon the line, tipping to one side.
The cuts, were scrapes, nothing harmful, nothing dreaded.
But one day, I made the mistake, to show my bare arms, in front of your putrid face.
You told me to find other ways, and said it was just a phase.
The school kicked in, after I mislead you once more, DCF came, and my life, shattered infront of your mind, before your life.
But you still didn't see, you still didn't believe, a phase it shall be.
You told yourself many times, that I would be fine, that I would come home tonight.
Your wish was granted upon the alter, but a sacrifice was made, a sacrifice to great, for me to keep.
You thought I was fine, because I sat and talked to you twice, but alls I told you was what you should of known.
The second time, was all about you son.
You have a lot to learn about parenthood, but I think it may be too late, to make the change.
I cut to deep one night, stitched my eyes close, and opened my ears wide, and let forgotten children flow inside.
The blood fled from the wound, and onto my sleeve, I told you, and you started to cry.
Repeating stitches will be needed, and my response was always no.
My suicide had failed, but not by much, and inch more, and blood would have been splattered across the walls.
Nice decor, I shall say, what may you of thought?
To see your daughters dried up blood, spread across the white bathroom walls.
My next attempt lies within the moment, I cease to believe I was ment, to see, what happens next.
Fugative love, honoring all the horrors, that lay unawaken gathering home made dust.
The dead, coming back, for the blood of the living, to revive they extinct heart beats, and the blackness of the never used lungs.
Spitting up blood, red, and wet, precious life, that is always made.
The next letter, will never be made, because you will never know, why I ended my life, on that night.
Salvation stuck the fatal core, gasping for the air, that won't come to me anymore.
Time is ticking.
My rainbow has died, burned out, committed suicide, just to let me live awhile longer.
Sent away my angel, and now I have one of darkness.
The path to my soul, is forever blocked, by thorns, and razors, bleeding sharp.
Everyone knows my fate, understand what I am saying, and you may be able to grieve before it is to late.
Satan has come for me, Hell's Bell's have started ringing.
At my weakess point.
05:32 Jun 11 2008
Times Read: 652
Enclose me in the madness.
Breathing out my humanity, while sucking in the demons, of my past.
Knowing now which way to go,
but waiting for the right moment to enclose,
my life within the glass.
The pain will always last, and never escape.
It's mine forever and a day.
So let death come and take me,
I'll be waiting.
On the Line between fate, and the demised.
20:05 Jun 04 2008
Times Read: 667
Living in a black oblivion
not knowing when my life will ever be right again
Will I ever succeed in what, I truely believe?
or will I continue to make other people happy?
Will I continue my journey on the road of cutting and misery?
Or will I come out alive and enlighten everyone on how happy I am?
Will my memories ever fade, or will they haunt me for the rest of my endless days?
Will I ever make someone truely happy, without hurting them once?
Can I ever make that promise true?
Will I ever truely choose?
Will I every truely live?
if I died right now, would I truely even care, if more misery lies ahead.
I just want to live, and find mr. right
I just want to die in peace, and not alone
I want to die, with nothing but happiness and pleasure,
I don't want to live and die at the same time.
make them equal kills me inside.
Can I just live a final day, where misery doesn't fill that empty space?
Living in a black oblivion, and not being able to breathe,
suffocating when ever I inhale, the stale, purid air.
Can I find the river that fills my very heart with the laughter of a child.
wanted and loved by his or her parents?
Will I ever live another single day?
Without hatred lining my every feature?
Stay continued, of what lies ahead....
It may just be and endless journey of life and death....
Daddy.
19:49 Jun 04 2008
Times Read: 669
Daddy, why were you so great?
Why did you love me?
Daddy why did you have to change?
You brought drinking into your life, you started out once a night.
You let it take over your heart.
You brought misery to all that was great.
Daddy, why do you have to hate me?
What did I ever do to you?
I turned from your daughter, to a prisoner.
Daddy I loved you, and now that love is hate.
I don't want you around, I don't even want to hear your name.
Daddy, please don't change.
But my pleas are to late,
your down a hole, not even I can escape.
I Just hope, I don't go down the same.
Daddy if only you knew, if only you knew, what you have put me through.
I loved you more than ever.
Everytime you took a drink, you killed another piece of me,
Daddy please listen to me.
You reject me, you have cursed my life.
You brought me to my fate.
You brought the razor to my veins.
Daddy you were all I needed, but now you are nothing, but garbage to me.
Daddy please don't leave.
You and mom were my parents, you brought me life, collided my soul with my heart.
You stitched my cuts, and took care of my bruises.
You kissed my splinters, and you looked at me with so much love.
What happened to all those memories, daddy?
Why have you replaced them, with these tragedies?
Do you hate me so much?
You made me a sadistic fuck.
I am more like you, than you may think.
I don't know if it is a good thing.
Daddy, you will bring my death to me.
You and mommy were all I had.
You were all I knew to truely love, and come to you for anything I needed.
Daddy, why have you left me, like mom did many years ago?
Will you gradually come back?
Daddy, I need you more than ever now.
I am terrified for my life, and I want you by my side,
Daddy I will die without your love.
I will live in hell, until I learn to forgive.
Mommy you have sworn to treat me right, but why did you let him leave?
Why did you let him yell at me, even though you said you tried to stick up for me.
Mommy bring Daddy back to me.
That is all I need to be truely happy.
But what about the revenge I seek.
Daddy you brought misery to me.
You brought this life upon me, you and mommy both.
Daddy will you ever hear my pleas,?
Will you ever show again, that you really care for me?
Daddy.............
Just let me bleed.
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