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I'm scared and fragile,

My emotions scream,

Please do not take my dream,

My only way to smile everyday,

It's so often taken away,

I know I can be immature,

Thats unfortunetly my nature,

To fool around and play with life,

I don't want to lose my life,

He is my only thing that makes me ok that makes my heart sing,

Passion bubbling deep inside,

Like a fire you did light,

First a spark and now a flame,

You are my breath don't take it away.

I feel as though were slipping apart,

I feel it in my breaking heart,

Everyday I pray to God wishing hoping there is one,

I beg him to let you stay,

I ask for him not to make you stray,

Last night I begged him why he is wanting to ruin my life,

Making me cry and writhe inside,

I asked him what I've ever done for him to give me light then burn out the sun.

I struggle deep inside,

my thoughts bubble and thrive,

a razor sits before me in my mind,

I become fascinated by the thought of blood,

then I decide this enough.

To the bathroom I prowl,

quietly without making a sound,

a razor sits upon the shelf,

dismantlement awaits,

then my trophy is held,

I brace myself for the pain,

none comes and relaxation is gained,

It starts at 3,

then 5,

then 7,

I lose count after 11.

My arm looks ragged blood oozing down,

I love the feel I'd like to drown,

But I still feel this isn't enough,

I pick up my trophy, my torment with pride,

A sad realization comes to my mind,

My happiness is just a slice away and one deeper than the other can end my pain.

Dead inside not yet on the out,

What is this FUCKED up place about?

Hating my soul,

Praying to die,

A common moth amoung butterflys,

Trying to smile,

Succeeding to cry,

Cutting my wrist hoping to die,

Acknowledging pain confused about love,

I will never open up,

I want him to see how fucked up I can be,

I want him to understand why he should leave,

He has a chance no matter how badly I'll hurt to run away,

Find a beautiful butterfly,

One that wants to live, wants to thrive.