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Silently sitting,



Trying to blend in with my surroundings,



Observing,



Just watching and listening to the people around me,



There are a pair of eyes beside me,



I might not be alone after all,



Another pair of eyes,



And then soon a face,



A vacant expression,



Watchful eyes that follow my every move,



Can he see me?



Or is he just invisible too?



A person walks by,



And seems to walk through him,



The person stops and looks back,



But finds nothing,



And just keeps walking,



We both cling to the wall,



So it wont happen again,



I wonder,



Can he speak?



Are the others or just him?



Before I can ask,



Another person appears and comes over to us,



I guess there are more,



Soon more and more people appear,



They speak a language that is all their own,



But I know that soon I will catch on,



I'm finally going to have a place to belong,



I dont think I will be here for a long time,



They seem to like me,



But I dont want to belong,



I know that I will only be rejected in time,



So why get comfortable,



Theres no point,



Eventually,



I get comfortable,



And seem to make friends,



But soon,



I fear they will turn on me,



And then I will be on my own again,



So I try to blend in,



I have learned their ways,



Stick close to the walls,



And never say a word,



I do as my new family does,



I stay on the wall,



And watch my former loved ones,



With open eyes and open ears,



I wonder if they miss me?



Some of them walk around,



With fake smiles on their faces,



I wish to go out and join them,



Or better yet,



They should come and join me,



And maybe we wont feel so alone anymore,



I stay close,



Trying to be absorbed by the way,



One of my friends walks by and stops in front of me,



She seems to sense my presence,



She looks right into my face,



Straight into my eyes,



She knows that I'm here doesnt she?



Probably,



At least she knows I still exist,



I want to reach out and hug here,



Let her know that I miss her,



And how things used to be,



But I cant do that,



Because it could hurt her as much as it hurts me,



We live in separate worlds now,



There is no world that is in between,



I can never go back,



But thats all in the past,



She realizes that nothing is there,



Even though she is staring right at me,



She starts to walk away,



I scream for her to come back,



I think she might have heard me!



She continues walking,



All my hopes of contact with her world are crushed,



A single tear falls from my eye,



It slowly crawls down the wall to the floor,



Nobody notices,



I am alone with my fellow wall-flowers,



Being surrounded by so many people just like me,



I have never felt so alone,



I wonder how many people feel the same as me?



I dont think ill ever find out,



Because it wouldnt matter anyway,



Because this is our fate,



Our future has already been decided for us,



Its never going to change,



Its always going to be this way,



I just have to learn to accept my fate,



All I'm ever going to be,



Is a set of ears,



And a pair of eyes,



Peering through the wall,



Into the world that I thought I knew