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Cold goodbyes and no more tears

I breathe in slowly, no more fears

Pictures must be spared, and taken down

A smile on the paper, yet I wear a frown.



Neatly things divided so each of us will keep,

No longer to share, let us not weep.

A present exchange but no pretty paper

Memories left here, nothing I will taper.



Scars that are not seen and never will

One part of us, no one can kill.

I cry out to god, Friend!

And yet it all leads to the end.



I cannot beg anymore, too proud for it

Who's wrong, neither will admit.

Stop is not part of this arrangement

Yet neither seek to change it.



No hugs, I can't touch you now.

Neither of us would allow,

Too many words barred between us

None of this we will discuss.



A handshake, a symbol of appreciation to depart?

No it's not needed, you took a piece of my heart.

Dark circles envelope my eyes,

I turn away from the mirror.

Barely awake, I staffle down my cries

How the image becomes clearer.



A protait lays next to me,

Smiling people staring back.

Yet I can barely see,

Happiness out of reach, my hand falling slack.



A razor blade cutting words in my skin,

My bones poking out through the meat.

The words no longer lost within,

These words not written out to be neat.



I bite my lip at the pain,

But I should be used to it.

My mind numbing all the same,

No where to be found, the first aid kit.



I set the razor blade against a note,

The blood bleeding into the ink.

How others will try to denote,

What could of brought me to the brink.



I lay down and listen as my heart beat slows,

I close my eyes and feel the pain disappear.

Oh, how easy the body goes,

My love was too strong, my dear.



To love a friend is one thing,

To let them enevlope your whole world.

Is more than I hoped it could bring,

And how my memory seems to swirl.



I feel myself spirling down, no longer looking back.

My mind going blank, my body laying slack.

Anger, frustration rip through my chest,

Through all my lies, I do contest.

I lied to myself just to keep you here,

And you pushed me away, my eyes tear.

What did I do, to deserve such pain?

Is it I that invited it? Am I insane?



Did I do some great injustice, that I am unaware.

Is it a crime, that I still care?

My love for you seems more than soul bound.

And through this all, I make not a sound.

How uncaring, how curel are you to me.

That you could leave me, and just let it all be.



I walk amongst graveyard stones now,

And amongst them are friendships dead, wow.

Toward the back rests ours, and there are no flowers left there.

This graveyard is just in my head, and I'm the only one that cares.

I wipe at the fabricated stone, and our names are written interlinking.

I find myself rather numb to it all, my heart slowly sinking.



I've excepted the fact that you won't be there,

Now I just sit there and stare.

All I have left is to say goodbye,

But you'll never see me cry.

A part of me will always be buried with you,

but for you, it's not enough to be true.



I will not weep, I will not let it get to me.

I just will have to let go, and let everything be.

I will miss you, and I know you won't miss me at all.

But this was just one more break to the fall.