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secrets
16:37 May 23 2007
Times Read: 875




Kick me , beat me , burn me but don't teach me what Ive already learned , the world is cruel , the world is cold with many secrets to behold , you tell me all your secrets , secrets that have never been told , Im like a diary and lock me up so your secrets can never be sold , I carry the weight of your sins , the weight of your every wrong , my sanity left me years ago , I sit in my cage watching , waiting , for more of your secrets to have and to hold , my mind wont shutup , my ears always open , my eyes begin to bleed for sleep will never come to rest my tired soul , my heart has grown heavy and cold like lead but still more secrets must enter my head , I cut myself to ease the pain and now I know ive gone insane .

saddness
16:35 May 23 2007
Times Read: 878

I scream , I scream out in anguish , for I love you and such love you cannot undo , yet your so far away............so my life is left in a shamble of sorrow , I long for your touch , your kind smile ,I feal sick , lonely , and insecure for the very reason that your out of my reach im going insane screaming out your name hopeing one day you'll be close.........I need you here more than you can possibly imagine , I need you here the only one that I hold dear......

T_T
16:34 May 23 2007
Times Read: 879

complete sadness has enveloped me i miss him so much his magical touch when hes not here i have great fear ill never again see him my dear when hes gone for so long i feal like somthings gone very wrong i shed my tears , my tears of fears hoping one day he'll be near its tru as the sky is blue

screams
16:33 May 23 2007
Times Read: 880

Fuck it , fuck it all im tired , im tired of life I can't take it anymore if I could I would end my life now but I cant I have to much to live for , to much to experience , those voices , those voices in my head they wont shutup I can't have peace , I feal like falling on my hands and knees covering my ears with my hands and screaming at the top of my lungs , I long for peace , I long for serenity I reach out for comfort but only get air an empty space , I know of my insanity and try to cut my life away , I want to scream , I need to scream but when I try nothing comes out , I bottled up my fealings , my troubles , and my worries , I need to scream befor I explode , yet my screams remain inaudible , I slice it all away the blade runs my wrist I feal a warm comforting release the blood it's everywhere , for the sake of others I must hide my hurt and my despair , I wait for my screams , I reach out & get nothing but air .

dear sweet hugglebear
21:38 May 22 2007
Times Read: 883

here comes my dear sweet hugglebear

gliding through the air with care

plucking me like a daisy

from my murky dispair

his love like fire sears my heart

melting a bond

that could never be torn apart

he's my devil on angels wings

the very sight of him

brings me to my knees

i can't beleive what he's done to me

i was a shrieking wraith

and now im alive with glee

hey mom
21:34 May 22 2007
Times Read: 884

hey mom,

i'm sorry it ended this way

hey mom,

i'm sorry she couldn't stay

hey mom,

i can hear her cries

in my dreams

to this day

hey mom,

like a butterfly in a rainstorm,

your baby was torn away

hey mom,

i wish this were just a play

hey mom,

i can still hear her say

hey mom,

don't worry i'll be ok

again
21:29 May 22 2007
Times Read: 885

here we go again

just a heartbreak

another failure

why van't i love anymore

this time was no differant

than before

why can't i smile

why can't i trust

why dose every glance

every gaze

every smile

hold so mutch lust

i want to breathe again

i want to see again

i want to be me again

if i could only trust

and see through the shrowd

of lust

without a single care
21:38 May 09 2007
Times Read: 892

casting shadows into a lake

by the fire, we share our loves desire

while burning our past heartbreak

on a funeral pyre,

in dire need of eachothers warmth,

while listening to the crikets quire,

under clear skieas and a cresent

moon,

the perfume of lillies looms in the

air,

while jealous frogs croak in

lonesome dispair,

we're whispering sweet nothings

and laughing at a young pixies hair

while dining on a pie of chocolate

creme

together we are living loves dream

without a single care

when you're here
21:20 May 09 2007
Times Read: 893

when you're here i cant help but smile

when im alone to think for a while



tears fill my eyes

tears for thoughts so vile



in a crowded room

im so alone



im drowning silently in thought

but with you there i could have flown



you bring me to life

even in my deepest strife



in my hours of pain

you keep me sane



together we walk down a lane

of love and happiness



without you im the definition

of gloom



im a withered flower and

you make me bloom

from my festering tomb



i never knew real love until

i met you



you make me feel all shiny and new



exploding with joy



when before i was imploding

with a flu

a flu of greif

a flu of loss



untill your path i did cross



together we are one

roaming forever

under the moon and sun