Today I found a friend,
Who knew everything I felt.
She knew my every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders,
And listened to my dreams.
She listened to how I felt about life and love,
And knew what it all means.
Not once did she interrupt me,
Or tell me I was wrong.
She understood what I was going through,
And promised she'd stay long
I reached out to this friend
To show her that i care
To pull her close and let her know
How much I need her there
I went to hold her hand
To pull her a bit nearer
And realized that this perfect friend I found
Was nothing but my mirror.
I face the future
Already planned for me
No nothing for me to expect
There is nothing to wait and see
For my destiny has been mapped out
I shall have no more youthful days
I shall never feel the thrill again
Of raucous, rebellious ways
I shall rear a child for eighteen years
Maybe even longer
For although Im still a child myself
Im going to be a mother
I miss the days when a kiss goodnight would put me to sleep- not tears.
I miss the days when a new dress would make me feel pretty- not darkness.
I miss the days when my laughter was uncontrollable- not forced.
I miss the days when a smile gave me confidence- not alcohol.
I miss the days when my thoughts were happy or sad- not confused.
I miss the days when the cuts were an accident- not intention.
I miss the days when a lolly pop cheered me up- not prescriptions.
I miss the days when I turned to family for support- not blades.
I miss the days when I was spontaneous, yet directed- not lost.
I miss the days when I’d cry because of a broken toy- not a broken heart.
And most of all, I miss the days when I was sane- not insane.
DIG MY GRAVE,
DIG IT DEEP,
DIG MY GRAVE FROM HEAD TO FEET,
AND ON THE TOP PLACE A DOVE,
BECAUSE I HAVE DIED FOR LOVE....
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