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Ok inner thought for the day. IDK what it is but the last month or so i have just felt like i was locked away from the world. I have hidden myself away and lost my way. I am trying to find it but sometimes i dont want to. I want to say away and run away from everything bad in my life. I am trying to find why I am so scared of living anymore. I guess it is because idk how to live. I am learning now thanks to some of my friends and a one of my exs whom i am still friends with Phil. If he had not told me that all I was afaid of was myself then I would not want to find out why. He did not say exactly that but subliminally that is what he ment. Well i am sure i have several misspellings in here. sorry but i am just writing for me. I have started a privet journal how weird is that at 20 almost 21 to have a journal but it does help sometimes to write down how i feel and what i am thinking. well anyway just wanted to make a new entry. goodnight for now.