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been working on editing my story again...typed out its at 65 pages single typed...not even 1/3 of the way done yet...no clue if its any good at all but it helps me to write it all out finally...been seeing lots of movies lately...friday was Man of the Year, week before that was The Grudge 2, week before that was The Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning and this week will be Saw 3...looking at houses again...looking to get away from the world as much as possible...hating it too damn much...hating humans and the supposed humanity...feeling so damn empty inside...hate the emptiness...feels like a gaping wound...like my soul is seeping out of me, leaving me a shell

its so hard for me to even try and talk to people lately...people seem so idk how to put it, dangerous i guess in a way...im so constantly afraid of getting hurt again that i know im pushing people away... i know that im afraid to trust my own judgement of people anymore...i just cant get over how i could have been so wrong about her...i dont understand what happened...how could she do this to me, to all of us here that love her and think it was ok? i wouldnt treat my friend like that ever...how many times have i given into her when shes hurt me before? my god it feels like im living a nitemare constantly...like im in hell...of all people, honestly she was the last person i ever would have expected to turn on me, to lie about me, to hurt me this way...