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i spent a while reading a journal. it was very interesting,and i actually envy some people on here for their ability to be so deep...the 2 on my stalk list are the main ones who i envy mostly. the latest journal i read is actually the first journal that i've read more than 1 or 2 entries and i only really read cuz i got that feeling of envy.... i highly recommend a book called Rules of the Red Rubber Ball by Kevin Carroll it's awesome. i found it by accident. it's very inspirational.



"Finding your red rubber ball is only half the struggle.Once you find it,you must follow it,and that takes courge,strength and imagination."

"desire comes from your heart,not your head.It will not always seem like a rational pursuit.It will not always be a path you can justify to others,or yourself."

Dark Blood For Her



Chapter1-Yotsuba-chan



My name is Jack Vincent.I'm 13 and I live with my dad and my younger sister,Elle who is 11.My mom died 3 years ago.Elle and I also had an older brother named Ryan. But he was shot when we lived in Trenton,New Jersey.That's why dad,elle and I moved here to Wicklow,Ireland.Dad said living in America reminded him of mom and Ryan too much,he felt like america was force feeding him deperession.Pretty melancholic poetic for the dad of me,a guy who has not 1 poetic bone in his body,not even the sad kind of poetry can come out of a pencil that I use.Ireland is ok.Elle was happy to see all the open space instead of a crowded city.In america I didn't really have any friends,here it's the same.Elle made freinds on her first day of school.I even lost count feeling sorry for myself.So, pretty much I'm pathetic.I was just walking to school feeling sorry for myself when I saw a girl walk out of her house.She had cropped black hair with bnlonde streaks,no jacket even though it was a bit chilly this morning,a purple tank top that said eat or be eaten,black jeans and elbow lenght gloves that were also black and had big rips in them. I thought she was beautiful instantly.

"Hey! G'morning!" I said just to see if maybe SHE would talk to me. She just glanced back at me in a scary way. At the corner she stoped and looked back at me again. This time less scary. That's when i noticed the tattoo on her face. It's was from under her left eye and looked like a black tear but was spiraled at the end.I reached the corner and smiled at her politely. She studied me for a moment then crossed the street.

"You know," she said,"you're a horrible stalker."

"Oh,umm,no. I'm sorry. I'm just on my way to school,"I replied nervous and embarasses. She laughed quietly.

"Then you shouldn't be following me,and you should have taken a left a block back."

"What!? Are you serious?" I said.

"No,"she replied smiling wide. I sighed in relief.

"Don't scare me like that,please."

"What's your name?" she asked with suspicion.

"Jackaden,or just Jack,Jack Vincent," I said feeling my cheeks turn red.

"There's your school. Later tater,"she said.

"Wait! What's your name?" I asked.

"That's for me to know,"she said pointing to herself,"and you to find out," she pointed to me.I stared at her in disbelief. She put in earphones and walked away.

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I ponderee the question ALL day barely paying attention in class. Then in math I got an idea.

"Vincent,Jack?" the teacher said.

"Here," I said.

"Yotsuba,Shizune?"

"Not here,of course,"answered a blonde girl caustically. I had seen a few guys drooloing over her before.

"Not nescessary Kathleen," The teacher,Mrs.Carter, scolded.

"Oh,sorry Mrs. Carter," Kathleen said innocently.

After class I found her. She was surrounded by a group of people.

"Hi Kathleen,"I said meekly.She rolled her eyes.

"What loser?" She said.

"What does Shizune look like?" I asked.

"What does it matter? She's just a stupid emo loser."

"Just tell me what color is her hair?"

"I don't know,it changes like everyday! It's like black and blonde. She's such a loser. She probably cuts herself and does drugs," Kathleen said.It was completely beyond me how people could be so shallow or even DEAL with someone like her.The bell rang and everyone flooded down the hall to get out of school.Then I saw her standing across the street looking straight into my eyes. Her hair was silver now and even shorter than before.I crossed the street. Her eyes were on me the entire time.

"Shizune Yotsuba,am I right?" I said as soon as I reached her. She looked astonished for a moment.

"My,my,good work,"she replied.

"Do you really cut yourself?" I said. I was surprised at how blunt that was considering how shy people tell me I am.

"Hell no. Guess I need to scare Kat-kat a little tommorow,"Shizune said.

"You're coming to school tommorow?"I asked maybe a little too eagerly.

"Sure,why not?" She replied.I think I've made a friend,one who is totally hot,I thought.

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"So,what's with you and Kathleen?" I asked.She shrugged.

"She's just narrow-minded and bratty. She hates anyone who defies her pretty much," Shizune said.

"Oh,and don't call me Shizune,call me Yotsuba or Yotsuba-chan," She added. I nodded.

"Agreed as long as you just call me Jack."

"Agreed. Now go do your homework Jack." I hadn't realized we were already at her house.

"Uhh,yeah. See you tommorow Yotsuba-chan."