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The nightengale sings her song

Cicadas and crickets join along

Forming an orchestra with the breeze

Nature's lullaby puts me at ease



The moon rises full circle in the sky

Cascading down her stolen light

Stars shine from millenia away

Midnight's light show on center stage



This is when I find my peace

Listening for all I cannot see

I stare at the sky with wonder

Find the stillness for which I hunger



Fm 9-29-08

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birra
14:20 Oct 02 2008

All three of these last three are excellent. I especially like Push & Pull...



...the imagery of it... takes me.. elsewhere. :)

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Tie me up and bind me,

Gag me with your will.

Pull at me, claw at me.

Teach me to be still.

Whisper threats, give me fear,

Keep me on the edge.

Pull me in then shove away,

Begging at your feet.

Bring my tears, show you care.

Take my offering.

At the end, pull me close,

As I fly away.

Keep me here, keep me safe.

I shall never stray.



Fm 9-27-08

With a sick perversion

I hold this version

Of what I think

Should be in sync

Then I awake

From the nightmare

At the ceiling I stare

Tears fill my eyes

A cry escapes my lips

How did I come to this

I thought I'd moved on

This fear doesn't belong

Not in this here and now

A deep breath

A turn in bed

I close my eyes again

Drift off to sleep

To more pleasant dreams

But the nightmares

Won't let me be



Fm 9-26-08

If I kissed you,

Would you kiss me back?

If I took the lead,

Would you follow?

If there were no complications,

Would you?



Fm 9-25-08

I've been this way

For quite a time

I've kept quiet

Not sure I'd find

The same emotions

I've held onto

I knew within me

To speak the truth

Life's too short

But the day is new



Fm 9-24-08

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birra
14:50 Sep 25 2008

Ahhh.. the dawn of a new day...



...the chance to greet the future with open eyes, an open mind and an open heart.



As a wise man once said... the nice thing about the future is it only comes at us one day at a time.

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faeriemoon
03:34 Sep 26 2008

Somebody told me once, some time ago, every morning I wake up and can put my feet on the floor is the beginning of a good day. ;)

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My mind a blank slate

Waiting formation of words

Need to be saited



Fm 9-24-08

I have not forgotten you

Or put you on some shelf

Do not think for a moment

I don't know I'm lying to myself

These things I'm working through

Are simply lessons learned

Hope binds and ties me to you

Just waiting for my turn

When your eyes will fall upon me

And see more than ever before

I hold out for that moment

Praying I won't again be burned



Fm 9-20-08

I lie when I say

I don't want you

I lie when I say

I won't pay the cost



I lie when I say

I have no guilt

I lie when I say

I can let this go



The truth is, I want you

Whatever the cost may be

The truth is, I'm selfish

And want you to be with me





Fm 9-20-08

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faeriemoon
23:12 Sep 23 2008

ahh, that's better...been looking over this for a few days and wasn't happy with it. Needed better flow. :p

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I am a masquerade

A mystery to myself

I've searched my soul

And have not yet found

All the essence of me



Fm 9-20-08

I wonder what you need of me

What I'm meant to help you see

Too many years of unresolved love

And now you've placed me high above



I'm terrified of you're expectations

But I can't resist your temptations

What joy are you trying to seek

And how can it begin and end with me



Free will led us to a point on a map

Now here, we must lean to adapt

The timing isn't right on this round

Next lifetime seek me and I'll be found



Fm 9-19-08

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birra
04:27 Sep 21 2008

Awesome. Very well done.



"I'm terrified of you're expectations

But I can't resist your temptations

What joy are you trying to seek

And how can it begin and end with me"



Very poetic.

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Please remove me

From this pedestal

Because I'm afraid

Of this height

You've placed me

And I'm scared

You will not like

What you see

When I fall



Fm 9-19-08

How do I tell you

This just can't be

I could never live

With the consequences

This flight of fancy

Would bring you and me



Fm 9-16-08

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birra
06:14 Sep 17 2008

Your poetry says so much... so many feelings...

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You don't even know

You rip my heart from my chest

Keep me begging more



Fm 9-16-08

Deep within my womb

I am forever bound

Of whom I belong

I can never say

A precious secret

You will always stay



Fm 9-16-08

Two

Both unattainable

One

By fate

Other

By choice



Fm 9-13-08

I have no way to explain

Why I must be on the move

The winds of change are blowing

Threatening to knock me from my feet

Stubbornly, I face them head on

Refusing to relinquish the past

Though I can't wait to be away

I'm terrified to start walking

The excitement of what is to be

Hasn't overcome my fear to move

My happiness will not be contained

In the where of my journey

It's found in the discovery of me



Fm 9-13-08

Please tell me why I cry

Please explain my tears away

Give me some shred of logic

As to why my heart is breaking

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Oceanne
23:56 Sep 13 2008

Hormones? :(

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faeriemoon
00:05 Sep 14 2008

I really try not to blame anything on hormones. :p More along the lines of indecision and lack of sleep.

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It's raining again

And all I think of

All I hang onto

Is that moment

And I'm beginning

To grasp an understanding

That singular moment

That drop of time

Is all I'll ever hold



Fm 9-13-08

I want projects to fill my time

Keep my mind busy

Not think of this hole inside

While filling it with empty things

At some point I'll realize

All I need is peace of mind



Fm 9-13-08

Home is where the heart is.

I don't know,

Where mine belongs.

I find many joys here,

But not enough,

To keep me on.

Watching Atlantic waves,

As they crash ashore.

Walking for miles,

In the sand,

Or on the boards.

Yet everyday I yearn,

For spaces of my childhood.

The place I still call home.

Where I stood,

In my parents yard,

And watched eagles soar.

I took for granted,

The beauty, of my youth.

The mountains, with no equal.

The dance, of midnight lights.

The wide open spaces,

No other creature in sight.

Mother Nature's last effort,

To impress and beguile.

My soul once again restless.

From a distance,

I here the call,

And I wonder,

Will my roots,

Ever settle?



Fm 9-9-08

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imagesinwords
05:26 Sep 10 2008

Thinking about home, eh? I am thinking about your home too, and I have never been there :P Only on connecting flights twice- that's not enough to say I have 'been' there. I did however run outside the airport to take a deep breath of cool air just to at least experience that :)

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I watch the rain,

As it ebbs and flows.

Floods the streets,

Swells my soul.



I watch it pour,

And I have no fear.

Only a remembrance,

Of not long ago.



The lightning flashes.

Thunder rolls down my spine.

I feel a tingle,

Of that moment in time.



The night something shifted.

Brought peace to this child.

Doorways were opened,

To passages untold.



Fm 9-6-08

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birra
05:20 Sep 08 2008

Why your journal is only on 6 favorties lists I'll never know...



...your writing is magnificent and breathtaking. I thank you again for sharing this.

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I found this in a notebook I haven't pulled out in a while. I'm not really sure when I wrote it but, I figured it might be worth sharing.



Time heals all wounds.

That's what they all say.

What if you want,

Your wounds?

Don't want,

To heal?

Want the constant reminder?

Want to never forget?

Time marches on,

Whether we want or not.



It is not time which heals.

It is forgiveness,

And letting go.

We can choose,

Let the injury fester.

Allow it to consume us.

But then,

We forget to live,

To move forward,

To move on,

To be happy.



I want to forget,

This pain.

I want to learn,

To forgive.

I want to forget,

The disappointment.

I want to remember,

What hope,

Feels like.

I want to find

Wonder,

In the sunshine.

And glory

In the moon,

High in the midnight sky.



Fm written sometime in 2007; posted 9-6-08

Please take a walk with me

Let me take you down this path

Please just trust in me

Let me show you what has passed

You wonder what might have been

Then question the here and now

You say we would be the same people

But I wonder, how?



I have only shared a small portion

A mere mention of what is me

There is so much more to listen

My life's dearest mysteries

The abuses I have tolerated

The tragedies I have endured

They only made me stronger

A woman, self assured



Don't question time's intentions

Or how I came to be

I've come to each of these places

Exactly on time for me

I am not the girl you left

Those many years ago

She still lives within this breast

But in this life, she's grown



I do not know why we are here

Or how we never let go

I always held your memory dear

Dreams fulfilled, my hope

Those dreams came crashing down

The day I learned the truth

Of joy and love you'd found

I had hoped to be your muse



What would have life offered up

Had you never gone away?

It's not a fair question put

The Fates have had their way

But will you sit and take a moment?

Let my life to you explain

How my joys and sorrows are important

To who I am today



You keep saying I'm amazing

But I'm no incredible thing

I am merely another human

Who's survived life's offerings

From the boy whose loss I wept

You've become an incredible man

It was never less than perfect

Though it wasn't how I'd planned



For all the trouble and miles

Somehow you never gave up

You knew we'd find each others smile

Time and space bridged by love

Now I can only ask you to be my friend

Walk with me down this road

We can share our lives once again

I have so many stories yet told



Fm 9-1-08

I want the skies to open

Feel the cool water on my skin

Remind me of the feel of you

Your touch, your kiss, your whim



I want the clouds to engulf the sun

Feel the breeze as the storm rolls over

So I can stand out in the open

Let the drops of sky my tears cover



I want to always remember

The sliver of time which we stole

The moment nothing else mattered

Please, make the sunshine go



I want it to rain...



Fm 9-1-08