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i feel like i've been walking in a dream, it's been very surreal. i go into this place in my mind where i'm almost clinically insane. people around me have no idea who i am. i am an impenetrable shell and nothing or no one can get close to me. my thoughts are truly mental and i am dissatisfied and unhappy. i look at my bike, i try to figure out how much stuff i can pack on it so i can ride away for as long as possible. it takes hard work for me to snap out of this head space i've been in, although i have to fight to WANT to get out of it,,,,,when i'm mental i feel powerful and excited and like nothing/no one can hurt/touch me, it's a good (but bad) feeling. i become reckless and dangerous. i want to do bad things....but it's almost passed and i haven't done anything too bad....yet....d