The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

tired
23:06 Jul 27 2006
Times Read: 666

all this week all i done so far is work sleep work sleep no time to play or talk to friends i feel like going to die i been doing 12-13 hour shifts

headache
20:44 Jul 26 2006
Times Read: 667

i got such a bad headache it hurts and feels like my heads going to explode i feel like going to pass out

Home alone
23:58 Jul 20 2006
Times Read: 674




ok so im home alone for 3 days and all i have is my thoughts my friends are busy and i dont have time or want to meet i miss them all so much and i left here to think and lonly its so quite and still and i feel alone and no one wants me i feel im losing what means alo to me like friends and how things was its so strange i try to go with the times but its kind of hard i wish i could see people and talk that mean alot to me and make me at ease and understand more better

confused
19:08 Jul 18 2006
Times Read: 678

why do i feel the world is againest me and im losing in a bad way all i want is how things were or kind of how they were and a few people were talking to me or how they used to be thas all i want friends mean alot to me but some mean more to me and am close to them and carfe and think of them evern when i get my head bitten off or had a go at for no reason :( i just want to understand and talk thats all im kind of sorted in my head but need to talk to some to sort the rest out i dont know what to do or say please help me or try please i feel im being pushed away and i dont want that

so scared
09:56 Jul 11 2006
Times Read: 681




im sooo worried im loose my girlfriend so much i read something in her last entry which scared me cos i love her so much and never want to loser her but feel i am i love her with all my heart and unyet feel im losing her yes i know i talk about a special friend i dont mean not to put stuff in her about her i never want to lose her but feel nervous and scared that i am cos of what she said about this guy in karatie and feel she wants him and not me i feel my hearts going to tear apart all over again and if it does i might aswell be dead i love her so much and want her and never felt this much love the way i do for her i hope she knows this i tell her all the time she knows i got depression and the thought of losing her to some one else kills me and really upsets me i love her soooo much no one could take that from me but this guy shes on about :( *crys* i dont know what to do now im so confused i love her with all my heart n dont want to lose her i want her n have her n have kids and everything shes everything to me losing her will end my life

slightly sorted
23:12 Jul 10 2006
Times Read: 685

ok so i was on dutie today it was ok and i felt bertter then i was and i got to slightly try and sort some things out with heidi but couldnt in away cos others coming n stuff i i talked about how i been thinking and feelin and i wasnt sure how to be with her cos of everything and felt nervous and i havnt before with her i told her about why i been like i have lil but couldnt fully cos my brain wouldnt let me n i know what i wanted to say but it wasnt coming out i hope i get to talk to her soon and talk about the rest of the stuff and she was and has been so patient and understanding with me and thats why she is so special to me i hope to get to talk and meet up with her soon and sort rest out????

feeling bad
23:10 Jul 05 2006
Times Read: 687

i dont know how i got like this it started on sunday when i finished work i had bit of a sore throat and over the last days i its got worse and ive tried everything and my throats killing me and got like a cold sort off it sucks i always get this stuff

wheather sucks
22:57 Jul 05 2006
Times Read: 688






ok so finally the sun has chilled out abit but its so humid now and sticky i hate it still i want be of cold clouds for while or cooler no more heat plzzzz

trying sort feelings
14:35 Jul 03 2006
Times Read: 690

ok so im now kind of sorted a few feels unyet they get mixed up again when i know they shouldnt theres one or too im sure of though there are about closest and first female friend ive had Heidi. i know nothing can go further then close friends with her and that yes theres been times we have talked about it and i have but know now they cant happen unyet i wont stop loving her as i friend and like a sister as shes helped me through things and i have to her and most of all shes helped me when its been tough and so has her mum which im very greatful for i just confused at the min as something not only dot heidis mum said and paul and polly that they said last year to me sooner or later its going to change and its going to be hard for me and now i can see what and how they mean as i not got to see heidi and dot and tara for months or talk like we used to and mess round i miss it alot and its hard for me as most of my time was spent with close friends and the best times ive had with them and now im missing it as i not seen or heard from them in ages and i hope i do soon as it will help me more to sort some things they can talk to me about and sort dots helped alot yet theres some things i want to talk to heidi about face to face i do hope i get to soon whens its chilled out abit.

Stuck
18:02 Jul 02 2006
Times Read: 695

well im not sure whaqt to say but yes im stuck i got a few problems that i cant sort out as without seeing the people i need to and talk to im stuck and i dont know what to do i miss them alot and i hope i not done wrong i feel they can help me some and sort few things out thats constantly sneaking n running round in my head and need to talk to them to sort it out and see how they are and what to do and how so it can go back to how things was or better then it is as im so confused with the whole situtration????