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Fucking annoying!! My aunt Jenny who is adopted is giving me shit on my stories and it pissed me off then she has been calling my man and talkin to him. ?SHe is always begging me to hook her up. Adopted and 1 year younger than me she tries to be like me most of the time. When ever we go to moms old home town to visit them i become the coolest kid in town and every one wants to hang with me.



But none of them are my style. I am a Smoker and among other things, a bitch. Any way its total bull shit, then i just found out that i may have to stay in the academy. Which also pissed me off. Any way i gotta go its time for class and we got an assignment

THE TEACHERS THAT TEACH US THE MOST

HATED SUBJECT!!!!! MATH!!!!!!

it needs to die! im so serious i hate it hella bad.

I mean why add letters to numbers in order to

confuse us? Its total bs i hate math! not all people do and i except it. but hey... its my journal. HAHA!!!! losers hehehehe if you dont got a life and your

reading my entrys then you

might agree with me or not. Eh dont matter if

you dont like it then kiss my ass and go find

Something else to read i don’t care what you think. Ids rather have more friends and allies

Than i want more enemies. WOW! i cant spell worth shit but i try. Some people are still testing but i was able to get on the computer. I rock!



News on my man and me:



In a way we are growing closer than ever. But in another way we grow apart slowly. WE are in love... At least i think we are. 2 many thoughts of what i don’t want pass through my head at the moment the one that cam first was that i don’t want to lose him at all. GAH!!! Why is life so difficult? Wow i need lessons in typing.



News on le home life:



Mom and dad are being asses but eh what can you do to the people who say that they love you? that’s right you DEAL with it. No matter how much you don’t want to.

I always repeat "Almost 18!!!" or "Next year Next year" when every they piss me off.

Yes that’s rite I have other things going through my head when my parents talk to

me. Big surprise I know lmao.



News on my Social Life:



Well... Sam is talking to me once more and its fine for now between us. Elisa and i are still best friends. OMG!!! i almost forgot what i found out yesturday! Ok so heres the story. My home boy Lee gave me shit during the time we thought that i was preg. No he's the dumb ass who got his bitch preg and he dont want me to give him shit about it. Hehehe if you knew me for real youd realise that hehehe im a bitch and im guna rag on him for it for ages. hahahaha i love him though what pissed me off more was that he is dropping out of school and getting 2 jobs. I hope that im an Aunty! i told him free babysitting. lol i love my friends. Elisa and her man broke up once more.

hehehe Wanna know somthing funny? her man was my ex boyfriend and my current man is her ex boyfriend. I got a total kick out of it.



Plans for the Weekend:



ok so hopefuly my mom and dad let me hang in town this weekend the coffee shop is open WOOT!!!! and i wanna stay so i can get started on the teen hang out thats guna be started up out at an abandoned house that is haunted. Theres a place where i can

make a wizards study room. If you live her in middleton and wanna join this shit, get ahold of me! Im in the tranny! it blows but you know where it is. At least you should, its where the bad kids hang out. Lmao, ask around for Kellci she can get ahold of me.

Im so awesome. Kellci is a dark blond wears black and a loud person most of the time.

Watch out she is a skitzo. hehehe gotta love her. Any way find her and you can get ahold of me.





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And stop reading about mine if you dont like what i write

that i am ingaged. Im so happy. I love him so much. and now sam is talking to me once more. I am happy in a way i guess. Im sorry i cut the last entry so short. Class was over, its test week and we get out at 12 15 i spent the day with my friends and my man i had a blast. My parents dont realy let me hang out in town much. It pisses me off i mean come on i am 17 this year its total bs. Next year i am 18 and i am moving out thank the goddess. I am so happy. My parents like to give me shit about it. Try and make me feel guilty. I hate it cuz it works. Any way this is my friends account that i am (the log in for the computer not the VR account.) so i gotta go and write in my other journal. BYE!!!!

writing in here at home. School is almost out 11 more minutes at the moment. Its test week and i was grounded this weekend. I hate being stuck at home. At least in school im surrounded by all of my friends. Even if all the people i meet dont like me at least i make 10 friends for every 1 that i make hate me. any way BYE!

me!!!!! I dont even know what i have done to her. All she does is ignore me, glare at me or sneer at me. I dislike it so much. But the happy thought is that i get to go to my mans today. Life throughs things at you that you dont want but you gotta deal with them. I see now that nothing in this mortal life can change that. Even if you pray and pray for it. I am also pissed off at some people in here saying stuff about Witched that are nonsence, stuff that is lies. I hate to face the world at the time of death, after it has happened. The world will end. I cant even type this up with out people making fun of me. With out them laughing at me. I wish... I always will wish... That i would have died... But in ways... I'm happy now. But with the friends that i thought i had lost to me... Its unfair... I dwell i know that. Eh but your the one reading what i am writing. Got advise? guess not lol. I guess that things move quickly in life. Even if you have an online journal. Hope whatever you read you get a kick out of. My suicidal thoughts are not even my own here in real life. GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate them at times any way I even have an audience as i am typing at the moment. Gotta love the infurior minds of others around you. Any way ill type again soon. BYE!!!!!

No one wants me here, in this room, near them. My pride is stinging from the comment about witches do not excist. These things piss me off so bad. All that feel is that people do not want me around them. AS if i am some unworthy bug. Yet it is they who are the bugs. i am the immortal i am the one who could destroy them if i was in my celestial state. And it is i who am here stuck with them instead of at home. I do not aprciate them makeing my human self feel this way. I do not like that they can be ass holes to people including me. I dislike them all i hate them i will survive when they die at the end of thier world. I will be the one to laugh at them as they who die are carted off to the underworld. No such thing as heven. I win!!!!! My people always have. They are sooo unworthy. *breathes calmly* I feel better now. Im in math at the moment and the teachers not here i will try and write more later but for now i must go. Thanks i guess for listening. Bye!

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Marioch
17:29 Jan 20 2008

Witches do exist and do good work, don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

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for some reaon. I just don't know what. Sam isnt talking to me and my boyfriend isnt here today. I chose lunch as a time to write this entery. My mother and I fought last night. After she said something about me being her only baby girl and not wanting me to move away from her. I felt bad enough that I told her that i wouldnt move out untill i graduate. It sucks. I wont graduate till around 19 to 20. I dont want to be stuck there for that long. I am about 6 months away from becomeing 17 and i still cant drive. I hate life so much at times. Im still pooring over what Brit said. I dont want to cause a rift between Ozius and his friends. It makes me feel like shit that she calls me a boyfriend stealer. I just want to cry at times. But crying shows weakness.



I need to disapear into thin air. Music and books taken with me, i would be fine. To leave this world. Into the darkness of the skies. Speaking of darkness i wrote more poetry. Very good if i might ay so myself. THats what i do, i write poetry. Lots of people love it, but not enough. I want to be a famous poet. I wont to publish my works. People who read this i guess see me as a drama queen. But i dont have much drama in my life. I dont see why people asume that. But any way class starts here in a few and i still have to try and call Ozius. Hunter only hs half days otherwise I would be hanging with him. But the vibe that I am recieving right now tells me that im not wanted here at this time. It stings my pride that i am unwanted here. As i said befor i want to disappear in nothingness. With liturature and all types of music. A place where i could control everything. Where i could live during the night and have enough light to write my stories, my ideas, and my thoughts. Where i could do anything i possibly wanted to do. All the power would be mine. Guess every one can dream dont you think. GAH!!! CLASS!!!!! bye!

like the leafs on trees' like some ones feelings. Another one of my guy friends told me that i cared alot about me. I dont know what to do. I told him that i would hav said no to him if he had asked me out cuz he is a friend. and then another good friend's sister told me that her brother (my friend) wanted to kill Ozius so that he could have me. Things are just so mixed up. My mind is spinning out of control when i try and wrap my mind around everything that i must, My grades, My chores, Getting a Job, My poetry, My freinds, My music, My writing, My books. Its all to much at times i just want ot explode but i cant. Things they are as they are, i cant change that no one can but we can do all that we must to do our best. I think i am gunna stop with the artcles no one seems to like them i guess. Eh it was worth a shot and i can always use it as an excuse to get on the net. I think that in a way its good that people come to care about me more just as long as its not to much. I dont want to lose them as that friends i would have than the lovers i could have. Any way class is over and i must go catch the buss. I shall try and get on tonight.

Hope who ever is reading these that they like what goes on in my life. BYE!!!!

keep spinning uncontrolably and i cant keep track of them. Sam seems so mad at me, I dont know what to do. Sam is some one i thought to be my friend but she was a fake. Acording to things ive heard. Elisa is my best home girl and im glad we met. Im actualy at lunch at the moment and have to get off the computer here in a few. But every one that are my friends seem very pissed off today. Ill update later My rooms nearly clean at home so i may be able to get on but... for now its back to English then to math. We get out at 1:55 today! Class is starting i must go BYE!!!!!

Ok so this is a personal entry. I shall now enlighten you why it is that I am pissed off. My boyfriends friend hates me cuz supposedly she is inlove with him. Ozius is mine. She calls me a boyfriend stelaer, or so I just herd. She needs to lay off. She is totaly Ugo. (Ugly) But i can accept her jealosy. It just irked me that she had the guts to text his phone and say that "I hate your gf lmao" the lamo means laugh my ass off. It was as iff she thought it was funny. It kinda hurt knowing that not all the people I wish to makes with like me. Either cuz I'm a bad person or just cuz they are ass holes and can't accept that i got the thing they want most. The love of another person that they care about. I love him with all my heart.



Accordingly, i got intruble yesturday in English class for texting. I got away with it too, searched and everything, not to mention they checked my bag and my person. I got out of it YEA!!!!! I am so awesome! ya gotta love me. But back to the Brit thing. Ozius is my man and she cant accept it. My parents where fighting the other day, and they still dont want me to bring my ipod to school. I do it any way. OMG!!!! i almost forgot I am going to Ozius this weekend on friday hopefuly! i havent spent much time with him but i cant wait. He is 17 this month wich means that he gets to move out next year! he says that we will stay together forever. I want to marry him, i dont want to lose him. My baby sister is pullin some shit, and there is so much drama around me. here at school. People drinking, talkin about smokin pot and shit, it gets kinda tiering bare it. Specialy if i have Ozius and my friends. I love music, and i know im going on and on about diferent topics but i cant help my mind wondering back to the bitch who likes my man and cant let him go even if she has her own man. I dont know, only she does. Can't she let him go? i guess not but anyway im gunna go surf around the net and find some new sites to hang out on. More later i guess byes!!!!!



~Myth

This one is a personal entry. on the 31st is my boyfriends birthday but i gave him something today. A deck of high times cards. I dont use them much and as I susected he loved them. Hunter has arrived and now it is time to start on our new article i will write another journal entry when i have time.

That I will post the articles in the Stories section of my journal. Update soon. Mail me if any questions.

I guess its a relief not to be pregnant. But at the same time its disappointing as well. I love the guy I'm with and I don't want to lose him at all. I'm afraid of what comes in life at times. We can't ever see it coming, and when it does, you know that you can't change your choice. I'd rather like to do these posts like Articles that all may read. I may be only 16 but i have a vast knowledge of things. My updates will be through out the week and maby on weekends. Message me if you want to ask any questions or on what i should talk about next. I don't know if this will work, so untill I get messages I will write these to inform others of what i do. The articles will be named something else like maby "Article one: BLAH BLAH BLAH" I dont know yet. Lets home who ever is reading this is that we will get some views.





Any way I'm back at school and I'm happy for once. With the love of my life with me, and all my new friends it isn't hard to adjust. I know what the First article will be about!!! I will post an update here when and where it is thanks for tunin me and just reading what I write. Bye!!!!

Afraid to be a mother. AT only 16, why am i put through this i ask myself repeatedly. All i want is to write, i all i want is to dream. I dont want to be a mother not yet, but im happy about it to. My friend likes to tell me i am, but i havent taken the test yet. Im to afraid. Of the result. I just want to run. My birthday not yet here. All i want is help. Does it matter what i want? The answer is no, the thoughts are too. I want to be left alone. If i am pregnant then i shall raise the child with the love that i contain. My prayers are sent to the gods that listen to me. I am Afraid...

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xxxundeadxxx
19:08 Feb 25 2008

Ooo very creative.. i likeee

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